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Saturday, August 28, 2010

A different baby?

Did someone come and steal my baby and bring me a different one? Seriously... he is like a totally different kid. The Za.ntac and Soy formula seems to have done the trick. Collin hasn't had any colicky episodes since Tuesday I believe and has slept in his crib the last 3 nights! I'm so relieved. I'm so happy his little belly is feeling better! I've stopped pumping since he is responding so well to the formula. As much as I hate to do that because I know breast is best I know this is making him feel better and that is what I feel is the best thing for everyone. He is such a porker! According to what I've read he should be eating about 2 1/2oz every 2-3 hours. Well he eats about 3oz at LEAST every 3 hours. Sometimes every 2 1/2 hours. I told him we're going to have to call but he doesn't seem to care much! =) Seriously though I bet he weighs at LEAST 8 lb now. Which is a good thing! I think chubbier babies are so stinkin cute! Holy cow does formula baby poop stink! So much worse than BF babies! I was not prepared for that!! Also when I was changing him earlier today he peed (this is like the 3rd time I've been peed on) and he got it all over the wall!! Cracks me up! I'm just too slow at changing diapies! Well I'm going to get going... hope this post made since... I'm eating lunch and doing this at the same time so my mind is scattered as usual!

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Collin's 3 weeks!

Tomorrow anyway but DH is tending to Collin's needs so I have a minute to write a little update on my main man. I've switched him to Soy Formula. Please don't yell at me girls. I'm still pumping & freezing in case the Soy doesn't fix the problem. Doctor has also put him on Zan.tac for possible GE.RD. I've been giving him gas drops as needed & gripe water every 4 hours. Today hasn't been so bad but the last few nights have been awful. I feel so bad for him. I just cry because there is nothing I can do to help him. I'm sorry if I've been writing poor me pity party stuff... that isn't my intention. I just need advice is all. I hope I'm doing the right things. I know BM is best but I have to try the soy and see if it helps. MIL bought 2 cans and brought it over tonight. Said to let her know when we're out and she'll get more. How sweet. Formula is expensive! Collin is starting to like bath time! He was so content during bath time tonight. After we went on a walk & just got back. In face he's been pretty cry free this evening until now. I hear him in the living room w/DH! It's only 7:40... hopefully he continues to do well! We'll I better get going... I'll leave you w/a picture! Diapie change! He's not a fan!

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Hope this works!

The nursed called to check in w/me yesterday. How awesome is that? She called me! To see how Collin was doing. Wow. Most pedi doctors that I know of don't do that... I think I'm really going to like this place a lot. Thank heavens! Anywho so the nurse called to check in on us and suggested doing away w/the formula bottle all together and just go w/Breast milk & cut dairy out of my diet. So I've stopped that & went back to nursing. I will just pump a bottle if need be. I did that all day yesterday and so far today. He still screamed pretty much all day yesterday. I fed on demand. No restrictions, no bottles. I'm at a loss. So far he's been good today BUT it's only 1:00. After talking w/my mom & DH's mom we both had colic as babies and had to be put on Soy milk. I'm supposed to call the doc on Monday and let them know how things went this weekend and depending on how the weekend goes I may suggest putting him on the Soy formula and see what happens. I will keep pumping to keep up my supply in case that doesn't work. The nurse also suggested giving him Gripe Water. I'd never heard of it but it's some natural liquid stuff that Wal.gre.ens sells to help w/colic so we've been giving him that every 4 hours as well. Wish me luck ladies! Yesterday was brutal. I was about in tears all day because I felt so bad for him. Just the look on his face like he's in pain kills me & there is nothing I can do about it. Anyone out there w/colic babies have any suggestions or words of wisdom? I can't believe that colic peaks at 6 weeks & it only gets worse before it gets better... this is probably selfish of me to even say this but I hate that my whole maternity leave w/him will be filled w/him crying all day. I feel like we won't get to have any fun together or time to really bond before I go back to work. I hate to wish these weeks away but I have been... just counting the days before he feels better so we can really be a family.

Thursday, August 19, 2010


Collin might have Colic. I feel terrible. There is just nothing I can do to soothe him sometimes. He doesn't have crying fits often but when he does it's usually about 1/2 hour after a feeding and he goes crazy like he's starving. Starts rooting and sucking on his hands vigorously. I called the doc and apparently that is a sign of Colic and it starts around 2 weeks. He's been eating 2oz of breast milk every 2 hours. Doc said I can give him 2 1/2 every 2 hours but no more than that. She thinks he isn't really hungry... and giving him more will only make it worse. Last night was awful.. he took a 2oz bottle of breast milk at 8 and then screamed bloody murder like he was hungry so I then gave him 2oz of formula... he continued to scream so DH took him on a short walk... seemed to calm him down for a whole 10min. I finally caved and gave him the breast at 10:30 and then he was satisfied. He didn't need all of that... but that was the only thing I could do to calm him down. Hopefully tonight is better. I just have to let him cry and not give in and give him more to eat. It's so hard to let him cry though. I bought a M.o.b.y wrap so hopefully that will help too. Oh and did I mention that I have a clogged milk duct? I'm not getting stressed or anything.. nope. Not me. Not one bit. =) How are you girls?? Someone tell me some good news!??!?!?!

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

This feels good!

Today has went perfectly! Collin has took a bottle of breast milk every 2-2 1/2 hours and I've been able to pump every 3 and gotten 2oz+ every time! Seems to be working great. Last night we gave him a formula bottle at 11:30ish and he didn't wake up until 2:30ish. We then nursed at 2:30, 4:30 and about 6:30. When we actually got up around 8:30we started the day w/a breast milk bottle and pumping. I've been pumping when he's sleeping. I feel such a wave of relief. I just hope I'm not jumping the gun here & this actually works! We ran a few errands today- ordered our pictures, went to the post office, stopped by my grandpa's, and got BK for lunch. Fun stuff! haha. He did really good... got a bit fussy in the car but not bad. It's been a good day so far! Hope everyone is doing well! I've been trying my best to keep up w/everyone but if I've missed anything please forgive me!

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

2 week check up!

Collin weighed 6lb 9oz at birth and now weighs 7lb 6oz. He's getting big! I had a nice chat w/the doc and decided that I'm going to supplement w/formula and pump. Seems like the best decision for me at this time. I hope it's the right one. At least he will still be getting some breast milk. He's wanting to nurse every hour and cries if he isn't at the breast. Doc thinks he's basically using my boob as his pacifier. We will start using pacies as well to hold him off on eating if need be. I can't feed him every hour. It's just not possible. I sure hope this works... it's stressing me out and I feel awful for not nursing him anymore. Other than our feeding problems he's doing great! Go back on Oct 1st for his 2 month check & immunizations. Ick.

Friday, August 13, 2010

I don't like it

Breastfeeding that is. I just don't like it. I feel as though I don't do anything else besides feed Collin. He wants to nurse sometimes every hour. I feel so guilty if I stop but this just isn't for me. I started pumping last night but have only got a total of 3oz. I know it will keep coming and I'm hoping pumping will do the trick. Until then... I'm still breastfeeding. Talk me down girls... tell me not to go towards what's easiest- formula. Not that there's anything wrong w/that but I was just so dead set on bf that I'm really letting myself down if I stop after 1 1/2 weeks. I know I just need to give it time.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Picture time!

It may have taken me a week but here are some pics of Collin! Sorry it took me so long! We are doing well. Trying to get nursing off to a good start but he's wanting to sleep through feedings. Kind of stressful but I'm working on it! He's also wanting to be held when he sleeps so we're having trouble sleeping in the crib and working on that as well! Other than that doing great! Planning on taking a visit to my MIL's tomorrow for a wee bit to get out of the house. We'll see if I make it there!

Tummy Time!
Before we left the hospital. In his own cloths & car seat.

Right after he was born!!

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Birth Story!

Hi girls! Here's Collin's birth story for you... Sorry about the lack of pictures. Hubby is supposed to help me get them on here tonight!

Well as you know I had an OB appt on Tuesday. At my appt I was still dilated to a 2-3 but was fully effaced. Doc said to make an appt for Monday so we left it at that. Well around 2a.m. I woke up w/a contraction. A new contraction. One I hadn't felt before... this one actually hurt a bit. So I kept laying in the recliner and had another one maybe 20 min later. I slept a lot on the recliner during my pregnancy... just more comfortable. Anyway so I then got up and went to lay in bed w/DH and he was awake. I said to him that I thought Collin would be born today because of these different contractions I'd just had. I decided I wasn't going to fall back asleep so I was going to just get up and get on the computer for a bit. So I sat up and felt a gush. I said "OMG I think my water just broke" and got up and went to the bathroom. Of course DH is up as soon as I said that. So I'm in the bathroom... pull down my underwear and its all bloody. Bright red blood. I sat on the toilet and almost immediately there is a clot that comes out and the whole toilet is filled w/blood. I called the hospital and told them what happened. I said I've only had 2 contractions but I just think there is too much blood here to be my bloody show. They said to go ahead and come up and they would take a look see. So we hurry up and finish packing our bags and left. We only live 5 min from the hospital. So by the time we actually got to the hospital which was maybe 30min after I called I had had a total of maybe 6 contractions. We get up into the labor and delivery room, they nurse checks me and I'm dilated to a freaking 9! Yes that's right a 9! I almost shit myself. I was barley even having contractions and the ones I was having weren't even that bad. So my mom and DH's mom and dad get to the hospital but were only in the room for maybe 15min before the doc was there w/my epidural so they had to leave. I got my Epid. and maybe an hour later I was at a 10. My waters were still intact though so the OB on call (not my OB) comes in breaks my water and it's time to push. I push for maybe 30min and then the OB whips out the suction thing and cuts me and out he comes! I was oh so very lucky! I was in labor a total of 4 1/2 hours if you count the minor contractions that begun at 2am until Collin was born at 6:27am. I'm a bit pissed that the OB did the suction and episiotomy w/out my asking for it and there not being a medical reason why we had to get him out right away... I think that OB is a jerk and just wanted to hurry up and go back home. We got released Thursday evening at 6 and things are going well... My milk came in today, which is awesome! I think Collin was getting a little upset that he wasn't getting much from me! He isn't a fan of his crib but we're working on that. He loves his bouncy/vibrating seat. I'm feeling pretty good. My episiotomy hurts but it's getting better. I'm not looking forward to DH going back to work Monday. It's been great having him here to help me. Okay I know this is all over the place and I probably don't make much since but I'm a bit tired! I'll try my best to keep you girls updated on baby! But for now... I'm going to try and take a nap before dinner!

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Collin's First Photo Shoot!

Hi girls! I don't have time to post the pics that we took at the hospital but he had a photo shoot today at the hospital! I know the owner of this place and she came up to the hospital and took these pics for FREE! She is starting the "Hello World" package and wanted to use him as one of her models. Woohoo!! Anywho... go to here hit client viewing at the bottom and then children, pick Collin and password is collin. The more photo shopped ones should be on the "Hello World" link soon. Hope you guys like! We think he's pretty awesome!

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

He's Here!

Collin William Lee has arrived! He was born at 6:27am and weighed 6lb 9oz. 19 inches long. We are both doing great! Pics & birth story to come!

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

39 week appt update!

Completely effaced but still only dilated to a 2-3. Apparently this is common for first time moms. Doc says things are going perfectly. I go back Monday morning and will most likely be induced at midnight if I haven't gone into labor yet. Doc says I very well won't make it till Monday anyway. I never thought I'd want to be induced... I wanted it to happen naturally but I've completely changed my mind. I'm just so worried that something will go wrong at the last minute that I'm thinking there is no way I want to go past my due date. After that day he's ready for sure so lets just get him out before anything can happen. Maybe that's stupid but I just think of all the bad things that could go wrong like the cord getting around his neck or something and it freaks me out. So anywho... any day for sure now! Wish me luck ladies. This could be the last update you get from me until the big announcement! =) Love you girls and praying for you everyday!

~Thank you for all the condolences about my aunts passing. We got back some of the autopsy results.... they think it was dehydration from her being sick that week and vomiting. The dehydration caused her heart to get off beat which then caused edema in the lungs. Crazy.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Shitty weekend

Well this was a shitty weekend...

~ My aunt passed away yesterday. She was 58. Out of 7 kids... only 2 remain on my dads side of the family. The 2 that are alive live in California. My family is pretty much gone & I hate it. I hate that my son will barely know that part of our family. We aren't sure what caused my aunts death at this point but they are doing an autopsy tomorrow. Apparently she wasn't feeling well and even saw a doctor on Wed. My grandpa hadn't heard from her for a few days so we went to bring her some soup yesterday and found her dead in bed. She lives alone, never been married, no kids. She either had a heart attack as this runs in my family and killed my dad & one of my uncles, or it was a mixture of her blood pressure meds & booze. She'd become quite an alcoholic since my grandma's death a few years ago, it just killed my aunt. She was miserable and unhappy... I know she's in a better place but I hate that she died all alone. She was a great aunt, we had so much fun w/her as kids but after loosing all her siblings & her mom it just slowly killed her. Her visitation will probably be Wed w/funeral on Thurs.

~ A girl from work who is due about 5 weeks after me ended up in the hospital last night. She was having contractions & come to find out it was a horrible UTI. They gave her meds to stop the contractions but she is now on bed rest for at least 2 weeks. Thank god her and baby are doing good right now though. How scary.

~ What does all of this mean for me? Well I'll be working my ass off next week because we will be short handed, so no more PT & resting for me. And I'll have a funeral to work around as well. All the while I could go into labor at any minute. I'm stressed and fucking upset. This wasn't how things were supposed to be. I'm tired, I'm sore and I want to rest. I'm trying to stay calm because I don't want to go into labor right now, I can't. I was so afraid I would last night... I didn't want Collins birth to be the day of my aunts death, and I don't want to miss the funeral either. Fuck, I shouldn't have to worry about this shit. I'm supposed to be happy and excited right now and all I want to do is fucking cry.