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Monday, October 26, 2009

Good day =)

Today was actually a pretty darn good day!! Everything at work ran smoothly (doesn't happen often) and I got some awesome news!! No not the news we all hope for but pretty damn good anyway! My new INS made a deal w/my work that they will honor all deductibles paid thus far in 2009, which means my deductible wont start over until Jan 1, 2010, which means I don't pay a dime for IVF #2! Let me tell you I wanted to jump up and down when I heard those words this morning. ~I hope no one thinks I'm rubbing this in or anything... I feel so bad for you girls that don't have IF coverage. Its just not fair & I know I'm extremely lucky to live in a IF mandated State. If it weren't for INS covering this we would never be able to afford it.~

AF officially showed up last night/today so I start BCP's tomorrow & have an u/s on Nov 3rd to make sure there are no cysts. If I'm cyst free I start stims Nov 7th! Lord let this be it!

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Hello AF... are you there?- updated

Why is it that when you need AF to come she doesn't and when you want her to stay away she shows up! I took my last provera pill a week ago and she still is no where in site. No cramps, no nothing. I start stims on the 7th so I will MAYBE have a week of BCP's. Not that I'm complaining as I hate BCP's but for crying out loud... why does everything have to be so damn difficult! If AF isn't here by Monday my RE wants me to take a BPT. Why bother? I had my progesterone drawn 2 weeks ago and it was like 2.7 or something so I didn't even O. I'm sure AF will show up right after I get the b/w done. That's just like her! =) ~~~~Update~~~~ Spot has arrived! Now I just have to hope the cramps aren't too bad =)

Now for an INS vent... I shouldn't even go here because I'm so so very luck that my INS covers IF but... my work has changed plans. Turns out it will be better in the long run. My max out of pocket for the year will be 2200.00! So awesome! The bad thing is that I thought my deductible started over in Jan... now it's Nov 15th!! The week of my IVF! I so wasn't prepared to have to pay $2200.00 until Jan... so now I have to come up w/that. I guess I'll just go pick it off the money tree outside! LOL. So not happy about this! What a perfect time of year for this too... no Christmas gifts from each other this year!

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Candles, candles & more candles!!

If you didn't already know I'm a Independent Representative for Double Blessings Candles. I just started selling them in July and am having a lot of fun with it! Double Blessings Candles was started by a fellow IFer to help other IFer's in their dream of becoming parents. A portion of all candle sells goes to couples fighting infertility. When I first started selling the candles you were able to order online but not able to pick your rep... it's now available to pick your rep on the website and I will get credit for it. If you would like to order, see the products and read a little more about what Double Blessings is go to our website at There are lots of great scents & more to come! I can't wait for Christmas.. you guys will love the wax dipped Snowmen for the holidays!! Let me know if you have any questions or are looking for something specific that isn't on the website and I may be able to get it for you.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Bad yet good?

I had b/w taken today to see if I ovulated. I didn't of course. I now get to take those lovely devil pills (provera) again. I said last time that I wasn't taking them again... this IS the last time! See I'm going to get pregnant this time so I wont need them for years until I'm ready for baby #2. ~wink~ I can always dream right!? It IS going to work though. IVF #2 IS GOING TO WORK! I guess the only good thing that came of being annovulatory is that I will be starting AF next week and then BCP's for 2 weeks and then IVF #2 is here! It's moving along really fast! Yippy!

Well I better get going... gotta let the dogs out to potty before Criminal Minds is on! Ahhh I'm a TV junkie!

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Recipe Week- Taco Pie

Taco Pie
1lb ground beef
1 pkg. taco seasoning
1 sm. cnt. sour cream
1 cup shredded cheddar cheese
1/2 cup crushed tortilla chips
1 tube crescent rolls
Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Prepare ground beef & taco seasoning as directed on package. Spray 9inch pie pan w/Pam & press uncooked crescent rolls in pan to form crust. Add beef to pie pan. Spread sour cream over the top of beef. Sprinkle cheddar cheese & then chips on top. Bake for approximately 20min, or until crescent roll crust is brown. Let set approximately 10min, or until set. Serve w/favorite taco topping (lettuce, taco sauce...). I usually add extra chips to mine after I've added the lettuce & sauce.
This is one of my favorites ladies! I hope you like it if you decide to make it. Don't you love my Dixie plate China??? LOL I hate doing the dishes... I use paper plates ALOT!

Monday, October 12, 2009

What a shitty night

I wasn't going to blog about this because I thought I would just get over it and move on just like I HAVE to do w/everything else but I can't get over this and I can't get it out of my head so I must type out my frustrations...

Saturday was supposed to be a really fun day. I had to work in the morning but that's okay I had a reception to go to that night and planned on having a great time. Well we ended up not really knowing anyone there and got bored so Jake & I left shortly after the dinner. Then a "friend" of ours called and wanted to meet up and have a few drinks. This is the same "friend" that I have talked about in the past that makes the "oh fertile me" comments and totally ripes me to pieces sometimes. I try to avoid this woman as much as possible but her hubbie & mine are best buds so its hard to sometimes. I had no choice... we had to meet them at a bar for a few drinks. That's okay I thought... I'll just get drunk & wont care what she says to me. WRONG! I didn't get drunk (not sure how because I was drinking & sure trying to) and I really cared about what she said to me. I'm not exaggerating when I say she went on & on for an hour saying that she stopped her pill 3 weeks ago and though she'd be pregnant w/#2 by now and how much it sucks to have to wait a WHOLE MONTH to try again, how she really wants to give her hubbie a boy this time & would feel bad if she didn't, talked about making her hubbie get snipped after this because she doesn't want anymore kids, talked about how her hubbie needs to basically do everything for her when shes prego because she is carrying his child.. yada yada I could go on but you get my point. Seriously why in gods name would you say all of this to me? Its obvious that everything she is bitching about is NOTHING compared to what I'm going through and I simply don't want/need to hear this shit. What kid of friend actually does this? I can't stop thinking about this. I can't stop thinking about how she is going to be lapping me any day, another friend is going to get prego any day and I'm going to frigging loose it. I really think I'll go off the deep end. This is just so fucking unfair and I can't take it anymore. Its my turn damnit! Its my turn. After we went home Jake and I tried to have a serious conversation about TTC & adoption. I know I want to adopt but I'm just so afraid of actually starting it. What if I don't get approved? What if we don't make enough? What if they think we're unfit or something? What if they don't like my dogs? Then I have nothing... no chance of being a mommy. I'm just so depressed right now and so overwhelmed w/grief that I really don't even know what to do w/myself anymore. I just want to stay home & stay away from everyone because then I don't have to hear announcements or stupid comments from people that are supposed to care about me.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Update & Recipe Week!

Hi girls! I had my post op appt today and all went well. My incisions are looking good & should heal well w/little scarring. Thank god! My swimsuit model dreams can still come true! LOL! Just kidding! My RE said that he removed the endometrioma & didn't see any new endo growth. He did say I had some scar tissue from my lap last year but said it was minimal & wasn't anything to be concerned about. Seems like all is well in the "Uterus Department" and I am good to go for IVF #2 in November! I should start stems November 7Th- god willing there are no cysts again!

As for the "Recipe Week" I'm thinking next week would be good. You can post your recipe & picture any day next week. Just make sure you title it "Recipe Week" so we know that you did it! Hope you all have fun & find some great new yummy recipes!! You may want to explain what you're doing & why so any readers that you have & I don't will understand and maybe they will participate too!

Monday, October 5, 2009

Hi ya'll!

How is everyone doing lately??? Once again I haven't been a very good blogger buddy. Not TTC is the pits... I feel like I have nothing to talk about! I do have an RE appt tomorrow for my LAP follow up so I'll update you tomorrow on how that went.

Not much has been going on w/us.... we had a great weekend though! My coworkers took a party bus (w/2 stripper poles!) on a bar hopping extravaganza Saturday night. It was a blast to go out w/everyone from work and just let loose. No stress! I will have you know its very hard to dance in a moving bus! We went to a bunch of different bars in the surrounding area... 1 bar even had two pet pigs! That was interesting! We closed our branch an our early, at 11 and didn't get back into town until 7 and then went out to a local bar after that! I tell you I CAN NOT drink from 11am to 9ishpm ever again! My body just isn't made for that =) Good time though! I'll have to post a pic of Jake & I w/the pet pigs. It's great! Maybe I'll get around to that tomorrow.

I thought of something the other day & let me know what you ladies think. I'm in dyer need of some new recipes... I thought it might be fun to have a "Recipe week" or something where everyone makes one of their favorite recipes and takes a pic & posts the recipe on their blog. That way we can all get some new recipes! Sound like fun?!?