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Thursday, July 23, 2009

You're all my sisters

Got this email from my favorite aunt... wanted to share w/you all. You may have already read it but... I know some of us are having a difficult time lately for a variety of different things... I just wanted to say I consider you all my sisters & my best friends. Love you all!

A young wife sat on a sofa on a hot humid day, drinking iced tea and visiting with her Mother. As they talked about life, about marriage, about the responsibilities of life and the obligations of adulthood, the mother clinked the ice cubes in her glass thoughtfully and turned a clear, sober glance upon her daughter 'Don't forget your Sisters,' she advised, swirling the tea leaves to the bottom of her glass. 'They'll be more important as you get older. No matter how much you love your husband, no matter how much you love the children you may have, you are still going to need Sisters. Remember to go places with them now and then; do things with them.' 'Remember that 'Sisters' means ALL the women... your girlfriends, your daughters, and all your other women relatives too. 'You'll need other women. Women always do.' What a funny piece of advice!' the young woman thought. Haven't I just gotten married? Haven't I just joined the couple-world? I'm now a married woman, for goodness sake! A grownup! Surely my husband and the family we may start will be all I need to make my life worthwhile!' But she listened to her Mother. She kept contact with her sisters and made more women friends each year. As the years tumbled by, one after another, she gradually came to understand that her Mom really knew what she was talking about. As time and nature work their changes and their mysteries upon a woman, sisters are the mainstays of her life. After more than 50 years of living in this world, here is what I've learned:
Time passes.
Life happens.
Distance separates.
Children grow up.
Jobs come and go.
Love waxes and wanes.
Men don't do what they're supposed to do.
Hearts break.
Parents die.
Colleagues forget favors.
Careers end.
BUT......... Sisters are there, no matter how much time and how many miles are between you. A girl friend is never farther away than needing her can reach. When you have to walk that lonesome valley and you have to walk it by yourself, the women in your life will be on the valley's rim, cheering you on, praying for you, pulling for you, intervening on your behalf, and waiting with open arms at the valley's end. Sometimes, they will even break the rules and walk beside you...Or come in and carry you out. Girlfriends, daughters, granddaughters, daughters-in-law, sisters, sisters-in-law, Mothers, Grandmothers, aunties, nieces, cousins, and extended family, all bless our life! The world wouldn't be the same without women, and neither would I. When we began this adventure called womanhood, we had no idea of the incredible joys or sorrows that lay ahead. Nor did we know how much we would need each other. Every day, we need each other still.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Hello strangers!

Hi girls!! How's everyone doin`? Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I've been really busy lately & preoccupied w/reading Twilight... ugh I never thought a vampire book could suck me in like this. I have one chapter left and just started it Wednesday night. It's such a good book. Really. Jake keeps making fun of me saying 12 year olds read those books but oh well.. I like it damnit!

I had my very first Double Blessings Candle party on Tuesday and it went very well. I did $600+ in sales in 2 hours! I hope it keeps coming! It's really making me happy, keeping me busy & keeping my mind occupied. I'm going to do a Fall special for you guys... I know its a pain to send me a check for your order so I've decided that if any of you want to order something this Fall I will personally pay to have the candle shipped to you. All you have to do is email me your order & mail me the check! I will explain more when the time comes but I'm hoping to be able to do something special like that for you girls because you of all people should have one of these candles in your home. They really do smell wonderful!

As I have said before my mom is selling her house. I had to go over there today and officially clean out my room. I went through everything... found lots of old memories. I don't know why but it really mad me sad looking at old pictures from high school & being little. Maybe its the innocents of those days that I miss more than anything. I threw most of my stuff away but did keep some old letters & pictures. I also brought home my old baby doll crib. I just hope to one day have a use for it. If not I guess I will have to give it away. Until then.. it will be in the shed collecting dust. Hopefully not for too terribly long! *wink*

I went to my friends baby shower yesterday. It wasn't so bad. It was a small shower so I guess that helped a little. As soon as she opening the presents I took off. I didn't want to spend any more time there than I had to. I actually won a game too! It's a game where they put a bunch of baby items in a pillow case & you have to guess what they are. HELLO I'm the only childless chick there & I win. Go figure. Ah well I won some Bath & Body Works body wash. Hehe. Love it.

As you all know AF made her appearance on my 4 year wedding anniversary. Bitch. Anywho I called the RE's office to let them know. I have to get b/w to check my progesterone in a few weeks. If no O I will start prover again. IVF #2 will begin around September 12th. ER & ET will be the week of Sept 20th. I had them push things back a few weeks due because a good friend of mine is getting Married Sept 12th. I didn't want to have to miss it because of my ER or ET. I will be on vacation the week of Sept 20th so things SHOULD work out wonderfully!

I'm a guest blogger on Jenny's blog tomorrow. Not sure exactly what I'm going to write about but... you'll have to check it out!

I think that's all I've got for tonight. Time to get back to my book!

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

AF & Anniversarys

Well spot arrived today. I expect her to be here full force tomorrow. Just in time for DH & my 4 year anniversary! I told Jake he would just have to have an anniversary BJ instead! LOL!! We don't really have any big plans other than going to the movies. FINALLY! I've been wanting to the Hangover forever. I'm pretty excited about going. We never go to the movies. I'm craving come nachos and a cherry Pepsi =) Not only does AF arrived on my 4 year wedding anniversary but this also officially marks 2 years TTC. I will be on C24. Ack. I know that doesn't seem too horribly long and I know most of you have been at it way longer than me. I just don't know how you guys do it. Granted I've had like 5 failed IUI's, 1 failed IVF & 2 failed FET... but I can't imagine doing this too much longer.

I wanted to say I really appreciate your comments to my last post. I have been thinking about seeing a counselor if I don't start feeling better. Especially if IVF #2 fails. I'm about going to have to.

I hope everyone else is doing well. We are due for some happy faces and some good news! Wow... we are like wayyy over due for a BFP! Come on girls!! We can do it!

Monday, July 6, 2009

I'm tired.

I'm tired. Tired of work. Tired IF. Tired of life. I'm so tired of dealing w/all of these emotions. I'm tired of wondering what my life will end up like. I'm tired of taking meds. I'm tired of being sad. I'm tired of being angry. I don't understand how I can feel so unappreciated yet feel so worthless at the same time. I feel like life can't get better. Is this as good as it gets for us? Are we doomed to feel this way forever? Will we ever truly be happy? I just feel so pissed and feel so helpless. I feel like I have no one to confine in. No one who gets me. No one who cares to get me. No one understands. No one. I miss my old life, the one where I was happy. The one before "life" got the best of me. Screw this life. I'm tired of it.