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Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Moving- Need advice

Holla Ladies! I'm needing some words of wisdom from ya. I'm thinking of buying my mom's house... She is going to start moving into her B/F's house this weekend and will be putting the house up for sale after she gets her stuff out. I put in an offer to her which is WAY lower than she would have sold it for and she is thinking about it. Problem is... do I really want it? This house is much bigger than mine, in a great neighbor hood... we moved there when I was 3. This house has many things that I want in a house BUT its REALLY outdated. I mean its been forever since my parents did any upgrading to the house. It needs new carpet, windows, cabinets, paint, roof, water heater.. you name it & it needs it. I'm very happy w/my house right now. We remodeled it to our liking and its perfect for us but its small and on a not so nice street. Most of our neighbors could give two shits about how their house looks & it drives me bananas. I'm so torn w/what I want to do. We are thinking of putting our house on the market and seeing what happens and if it sells we buy my moms and if not we don't. Its that simple right? I guess I'm afraid that we will buy it and I will wish I still had my current house. I know that if we do buy my moms and we remodel it I will love it but I'm just afraid. Plus I don't know what people will think. I mean, my dad died in that house. In my parents bed room that if we move into will be mine & Jake's bed room. This does not bother me but it may bug Jake somewhat. Ugh I donno. I know I'm rambling but I just have all kinds of thoughts going through my head. I know this would be a good investment for us as this house will be worth way more than our current house ever will be but geesh its a huge decision! Any thoughts?

Monday, February 23, 2009

Lalalala

  • Meds have arrived! Eeekkk! I'm so excited/scared! Damned spot is still hanging around. Its starting to piss me off quite badly. RE appointment is Monday and I'm so anxious to get this show on the road! I asked Jake tonight what is gut feeling was and he said that it was that the FET is going to work and we are going to have twins. Hehe. That made me smile.
  • For those of you that use this "adsense" business... is it worth it? Do you actually make anything from it? I've been thinking about signing up but wasn't sure if it was worth the time & effort to do so. Let me know!
  • I've been having trouble leaving comments on some of the blogs tonight. I've typed out about 5 different comments to various people and it wont load those letter dealo's. Starting to make me mad! Anywho... sorry I didn't leave anyone comments tonight. I really did try!!
  • I want to give a shout out to my webmd pal Richelle & congratulate her on her TWINS!! That is so awesome.
  • I'm off tomorrow! Yippy! I plan to get my hair cut/highlighted and clean house. Woohoo! At least I will have some time to I donno... catch up on my online buddies! Until tomorrow!

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Absent

Sorry I haven't been around much lately. I was blessed w/the 2 day flu. Yes, throwing up and all. Sucked ass! I'm still on BCP and have been bleeding/spotting for the last 12 days! Can't wait for this to be over! Roughly 1 more month until FET! YES!
I've been seeing a few different names on my blog lately and I was wondering who all read me. If you do please leave me a comment so I can add you to my list and read you too! I do my best to keep up w/my blogger buddies and do much better w/this than the boards.
I hope everyone is doing good and having a good weekend!!

Sunday, February 15, 2009

I'm broke.

I'm starting to really freak out about money. Right now we're fine... although the bills are going to start piling in. My meds are on order- $500.00, I will have to pay for the freezing of my embies- $500.00 and I still have another $2500.00 that I will be paying to meet my max out of pocket which will be done after my FET. Shit. By the time I am done paying all of this our savings will be no more. We will be back to living pay check to pay check w/no cushioning and most likely be in debt. We've done it before and managed and I know we can again but damn... I just hate the fact that our savings will be GONE. Literally. Gone. I just don't know how we have spent so much money. We don't do a damn thing, we don't vacation, I hardly shop anymore. How in the hell did we blow so much money??!! I'm so mad at myself for it. Luckily in April I will have an extra paycheck so that will be nice to put into savings. I am soooo praying that my FET works so I am due in Dec and don't have to worry so much about coming up w/another $3000.00+ next year on medical bills. We are doing the Dave Ramsey thing and I have to say w/suck ass at it. This will be our 3rd month and so far we have went over budget every single month. We eat out way to much which I KNOW has to stop. I just feel sick over this. To top it off Jake hasn't been working as much... he works construction and it sucks because for one thing its winter and they are always slow this time of year but w/the economy the way it is people aren't remodeling/building. People are SAVING. His paychecks have some weeks been 1/2 of what he normally would make. This just sucks. No more spending! I have to keep telling myself this. Save, save save! Be frugal!

Saturday, February 14, 2009

High School

I'm bored and have been a pretty big drag lately so I thought I'd try something fun. I stole this from Christina- My Life. Thanks Christina!

1. Did you date someone from your school? Yes, a few people.
2. Did you marry someone from your high school?Yep! Jake was a senior when I was a freshman. I though I was soooo cool to date someone older. LOL.
3. Did you car pool to school? A bit. Freshman year my mom or my friends bro took me to school. Jake usually took me home. I had my licence Sophomore year.
4. What kind of car did you have? Soph- Junior I had a 94 Chevy Berretta! Junior- Senior I had a 95 Toyota Camry
5. What kind of car do you have now?07 Jeep Grand Cheerokee
6. Its Saturday night...where are you now? Usually at home or out w/friends
7. It is Saturday night...where were you then?At a party getting drunk or at the park hanging out.. there is nothing to do around here so thats what everyone did.
8. What kind of job did you have in high school? Fresh-Soph summer I worked at a snow cone stand hehe. The end of my junior year I started working at a bank and continued Senior year. I got out at 1PM for Co Op.... which is bascially when you get out of school early to go to work. Fun fun!
9. What kind of job do you do now? Still working at a bank. Not the same one though... I quit a year ago!
10. Were you a party animal? Oh yes
11. Were you considered a flirt? By some.. although I didnt really mean to be.
12. Were you in band, orchestra, or choir? No way
13. Were you a nerd? No
14. Did you get suspended or expelled? Should have been a few times but no.
15. Can you sing the fight song? Negative
16. Who was/were your favorite teacher(s)? One of my History teachers. You could get away w/murder in his class!
17. Where did you sit during lunch? At a table. Hehe. We had closed campus.
18. What was your school's full name? E******** High School
19. When did you graduate? May 2003
20. What was your school mascot? Flaming Hearts. HAHA. Scarry huh?
21. If you could go back and do it again, would you? Sometimes I think I would just because I had so much fun but damn there was so much drama back then!
22. Did you have fun at Prom? Yep! I went Soph- Senior year.
23. Do you still talk to the person you went to Prom with? Well I married one! The other one I talk to w/I see him. We were just friends really.
24. Are you planning on going to your next reunion? Yes. I went to our 5 year... it was pretty boring though.
25. Do you still talk to people from school? Yeah I still have a few close friends. I talk to the people I see out. I had a wide variety of friends.
26. School Colors? Red, green & white
27. What celebrities came from your high school? none. Nothing happends in this town!

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Disappointments

This will be a bulletin post as I'm feeling pretty disappointed about a lot of things lately...
  • My mom- I just got off the phone w/her... My cat another vet appointment yesterday for more blood work. The vet just called me today w/the results. Seems as though his blood work is much better and the vet was very pleased w/the results. This of course put me in a pretty good mood. Of course I know he is still going to die but at least I know he is okay for the time being. Anyway, back to my mom.... so I was excited on the phone telling her how well he is doing and she's like "well hes going to die & I'm moving... what are you going to do!" **sigh** She's moving in w/her BF this Spring and is basically making me get rid of the cat. Which means he will have to be put down because no one is going to want a sick cat. She just keeps telling me this.... I got pissed at her and said "I'm sorry for inconveniencing your new life... I'll get rid of him" and hung up the phone. She called back but I made Jake answer it. He told her off.. said she was being insensitive. I love this man! My mom seems to always disappoint me... I cant depend on her for anything. Not even for emotional support. Like I'd really talk about my true feelings w/her anyway.
  • I had a home decor party last night. I was really excited about it. I took the whole day off so I could clean my house really well and get my treats ready. I invited about 40 people, 7 showed up. I know people have stuff going on so I was okay w/it... except my MIL didn't come. That really hurt my feelings. I just feel like I don't have a whole lot going for me these days so it would have been nice for people that are supposed to care about me would at least come... even if you aren't going to buy anything. Just be there, that's all I wanted. During the party everyone had to go around and talk about themselves, their kids and so on. My mom said in her intro " I have 2 kids and 3 grand kids... now I'm just waiting on HER to have a baby" all pissy like. Come on mom, that was uncalled for. I just sat there and smiled while everyone talked about their families when all I really wanted to do was go to my room and cry. I did that after everyone left.
  • My friend is due to have their baby Sept 2nd... if My IVF would have worked I'd be due Sept 10th. I will forever associate this pregnancy/baby w/my failure. At my party this friend brought in some pics of her U/S. I'm happy for her yes... sad for me even more so.
  • I miss my dad. Everyday.. I just want to talk to him. I'm so disappointed that he isn't here and that he never will be again. Its been 2 1/2 years and I still can't get over it. I can't believe I will never see/talk to him again. Will this pain ever go away?
  • I'm disappointed at the stage my life is at. I want to have a family more than anything in the world. At a time where I feel like my own family has completely fallen apart I want to make a new one.. one that is truly "mine." Why is that so hard? What can't it happen? I feel so broken inside, so hurt and so cheated.

Monday, February 9, 2009

FET update

Well first I have to correct yesterdays post... today is Cycle 19 Cycle day 1. I talked to the RE this AM and we decided today will be CD1 as yesterday was more brown blood than red flow. I hate provera AF is so different when I'm on it! Anywho.. I start BCP Wednesday and have an RE appt March 2nd. HOPEFULLY if everything goes as planned I will start Lupron on the 2nd and should get AF again a few days after that. I will start estrogen patches somewhere in there and FET is planned anywhere from March 19-24! I'm getting really excited! This is it! I just know it! I think I'm more hopeful about my FET than I was my IVF cycle. Weird because I know the success rates are lower w/a FET.

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Cycle 19, Cycle day 1

Yahoo!! I never thought I'd be so glad to have AF find me but I am! I will be starting BCP tomorrow which means I will be starting lupron in less than 21 days! Ahh... I'm so happy to start things up again. I feel like this past month has been sooo long just waiting and waiting. I can't believe my FET will be in about 5 weeks! DH & I are having the "this is it" attitude again and I'm glad. I was really scared to start this because I was afraid of it not working again but I'm feeling positive and anxious and that makes me happy!!

I have a terrible hangover today! I have some family that is here from Cali so we all went out last night and I drank way too much and I'm sure I made a total fool of myself but hey... I had a good time! Not so good today though =).

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Random Wednesday

  • PLEASE AF come find me! I took my 8th Provera pill tonight so I'm hoping she's here soon. I'm really anxious to start my BCP!
  • The week of March 16th I'm taking vacation... a whole 9 days! I figured that's when my FET would be so I might as well take it easy the whole week this time and maybe w/any luck I can get a sticky bean!
  • That chick that had octuplits pisses me off. Why in gods name did she get 8 friggin babies from IVF and I didn't get any? She has 14 damn kids AND shes single, unemployed and living w/her mommy! WTF?
  • I'm sick of work. I'm sick of customers. They are so rude some times... please when you go to the bank and the teller says "thank you have a good day!" PLEASE at least say thank you back. Nothing pisses me off more than some rude ass customer that can't even say thank you!
  • I'm so tired of snow and cold weather. It was flippin 6 degrees out today! Its supposed to get in the 50's this weekend. HOORAY a heat wave!
  • I'm having a Signature Homestyles Party next Wednesday. Ever heard of it? They have to best home decor. Having a party is awesome.. you get so much free stuff! Free = good
  • I take my cat back to the vet next Wednesday also for some b/w and his yearly shots. I'm hoping to get some positive news. I went to see him the other day and hes lost even more weight & looks awful. I don't expect him to make it to the summer. He was just so sweet though... loving on me, you wouldn't think he was even sick except for how skinny hes gotten. For those of you who don't know the story my cat has FIV which is the feline form of AIDS. Poor thing, there is nothing we can do for him.
  • A grocery store in my town is closing its doors on the 28th. Good store. 50+ people are loosing their jobs. A factory is going to be closing by the end of the year too... that's about 200+ people. I feel so bad for these people. There are no jobs in this town the way it is...

Sunday, February 1, 2009

My Story

My story - Finish the sentence:

Hi, my name is: Jayme

Never in my life have I been to: Florida and I so want to go!

I hate it when: People are rude for no reason

If your gonna talk smack about me: I will probably "smack" you!

The one person who can drive me nuts is: My mom

When I'm nervous: I bite my lip

The last song I listened to was: Some Papa Roach song

If you were to get married today Your maid of honor/best man would be: My BF- she was my maid of honor when I got married

My hair is: In a messy pony tail... I just woke up

When I was 5: I can barley think back that far... I guess I was in preschool?

Last Christmas: Crappy

I should be: Taking a shower

When I look down:There's a desk.

The happiest recent event was: Playing "Buzz" on PS3 w/Jake and beating him!
My current annoyance is: Work!

I have a hard time understanding:The economy, the government, our world, senseless violence and abuse... I agree w/Margalina on this one!

There's this girl that I know: Has really pretty hair. I donno.. this question stumped me

The thing I want to buy is: All the stuff to remodel my bathroom

If you visited the place I'm from: You'd probably never come back because its so damn boring

Most recent thing I've bought myself: Lip gloss & raiser blades... fun fun

Most recent thing someone else bought me was: Jake bought me Pizza last night

My middle name is:Deanne

Last night I was: Eating Pizza & playing Buzz w/Jake

If I was an animal I'd be: A puppy

Tomorrow I am: Working... ack

Tonight I am: Watching the super bowl!

Now its your turn to tell me your story!