Wednesday, April 24, 2013
Having a rough time
I doubt anyone will read this but oh well. I'm having a bit of a tough time lately and I don't think I really realized it until now. I have been so busy with work and kids that I haven't had much time to think about anything else or process how I'M feeling. Stressed out and under appreciated pretty much sums it up. I got a "promotion" at work when I got back from maternity leave. "Promotion" if you can really call it that. I'm now the branch manager which is proving to be tougher than I expected. I was doing most of it before I actually got the title but to be honest I thought it would pay better. After the additional 2% tax increase that went into effect the 1st of the year my pay is no higher than it was before I got the new position. With the new position I'm the one that everyone loves to hate. Not all managers are like me but I really do want to make everyone happy and try to be nice to everyone (it's hard sometimes though when not everyone gives their job 100% effort!) but this job is nothing but give, give, give. You get nothing in return. I don't go home feeling a sense of accomplishment and I sure am not going home with any more money in my pocket (You bite the big one Obama). It seems like it's for nothing. Not only is my job turning into a flop but I feel like I have no true friends. I've said this for years as it became pretty clear when DH and I were doing IF treatments. The person that is supposed to be one of my best friends is barely speaking to me. Her and her DH are going through IF and I have tried to be the best support system for them as I can be. I've helped answer hard questions, gave support, prayers, everything I can. Of course it's hard for them now that DH and I have our 2 little ones and M was pretty much a surprise baby. I know it hurt them but it hurts me too that they haven't come by to see the baby (he's 5 months old today) and we've even invited them over. She text me and keeps me posted on what's going on in her cycle and asks my advice on things but a simple "how are things w/you" would mean a lot to me right now. Anywho the point to my rant is and I'll probably catch all kinds of hell for this but... if you are going through IF don't forget your friends w/kids. They most likely really are trying to be there for you but sometimes they have things they want to talk to you about too. Friendships go both ways. AND ask your boss how their day is going sometime... often times they are forgotten and they probably have some of the worst days out of anyone in the office and a simple jester like that could make their day brighter.