Monday, September 27, 2010
Breaking my heart
This is my last week of maternity leave. It's really starting to get to me. I feel so much anxiety about leaving him. I'm so thankful that my mom is watching him the first week but I feel so guilty about taking him to daycare w/strangers. I know it will be good for the both of us though. I just look at his sweet face and he smiles and has no clue whats coming. He has no idea that mommy time will only be for a few hours in the evening and on weekends. He will spend more time w/strangers at daycare than he will with me. They will probably witness him roll over for the first time, his first steps, his first words. It breaks my heart into a million pieces. I can't afford to stay home or even go part time... it sucks. I'd give my right arm to at least be able to stay home w/him 2 days during the week. I will probably ball all day Sunday.