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Friday, December 31, 2010

Happy New Year!

Before & after
It's time to say goodbye to 2010 and hello to 2011. What a year it has been. Looking back on the year, I'd have to say it's been the best yet!

Dec 2009- Yes this was last year but so note worthy. I got my BFP. One of the greatest day's of my life.

Jan 2010- Rang in the new year with some friends. Got released from the RE and publicly announced our pregnancy. A huge sigh of relief at passing the all critical first Trimester.

Feb 2010-Nothing to exciting happened that I recall.

March 2010- Found out we were having a BOY! One of my favorite moments. Starting picking out stuff colors/theme for his room right away!

April 2010- I turned 26 & Dh turned 28. First trip to the ER due to an allergic reaction from UTI meds. Yeah.

May 2010- My best friends wedding! Nothing like being 6mo pregnant and looking like a cow in a bridesmaids dress!

June 2010- My baby shower. Collin got tones of stuff! My cousin also got married. Got to see lots of family I hadn't seen in years. Good times.

July 2010- Celebrated the 4th w/good friends.

Aug 2010- My poor aunt Marion passed away. Such a great woman. Miss her lots! 4 days later Collin arrives! Perfect in every way! They say when one life ends, one life begins. I believe it.

Sept 2010- Just hanging w/Collin. Trying to figure out how to be a good mommy!

Oct 2010- Back to work. That sucked. Collin's first shots. That sucked. Collin's first Halloween. That was cool. =)

Nov 2010- Thanksgiving at my Mom's. Good food! Wish I had some right now =) Collin tried taters. He liked them!

Dec 2010-Busy busy! Christmas! Open House! Collin's first Christmas! He got lots of stuff!!

Friday, December 24, 2010

Merry Christmas!


Merry Christmas! I hope you all get what you so deserve this year...


Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Pictures




A few pic's of Collin at 4 1/2 months. He's starting to really like laying on a blanket playing w/toys. He's rolled over twice! Getting so big. I wish I could freeze time. Everytime he does something new I'm so excited and then I want to cry because I want him to stay a baby forever...

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Random bullettness

Must do bullets for all the updating I have! Sorry so late!
  • Christmas is only 10 days away! I can hardly believe that. This is the first I have actually looked forward to Christmas in years. It's always been a sad day. Sad w/IF and will all the missing family members. It's still a sad day because I miss the old Christmases w/my family and my dad being here but this year we will have some joy w/Collin. Now I just need to get my shopping done! Ack!
  • My house has been full of sicko's lately. Collin had it, then DH, then me, then Collin and now I have a stomach ache. I hope it's not coming back around!
  • AF finally showed up on my door step. I'm on CD 14. I started charting on FF. com. NO I'm not TTC or anything but I'm charting to see how my cycles are. Still got my fingers crossed for some normal cycles. I didn't have cramps w/AF this time so I'm hoping doesn't change =)
  • My friend that has MTHF that I spoke of a while ago has seen an RE and is going to be taking Lexapro? I think is what it's called anyway and progesterone if/when she is pregnant. She took femara & hcg this cycle so hopefully this works out for her. She's had 4 miscarriages- 3 w/in the last 6mo or so. Please keep her in your thoughts.
  • DH and I seem to be at each others throats lately. I know it's due to lack of sleep and the fact that we haven't had more than 2hrs alone together since Collin was born is starting to wear on us. We plan to take a day in January to do some shopping just the 2 of us. My mom is going to watch him. I'm excited... I love Collin more than anything in this world but it's time for DH & I to spend some time alone.
  • Collin is growing like a weed! At his 4mo checkup he weighed almost 15lb! He's getting so interested in toys and even rolled over the other day! He amazes me everyday with the new things he does. He started making farting noises and blowing bubbles. It's so funny!
  • I know I have a bajillion things I need to say but I'm out of time for tonight... Criminal Minds is on in 10 min. Can't miss it!
  • I hope you all are well and as always I'm praying for you girls. May you all have a blessed Christmas and I truely hope you all get what you want this year!

Monday, December 13, 2010

Hi girls!

I'm alive and I haven't forgotten you all! I will post a real post soon. Just been really busy lately! Lots of hugs to my girls!

Sunday, November 21, 2010

1 year ago

1 year ago today I posted this. It was my 2nd IVF round. I remember trying so hard not to get my hopes up like I had all the times before. I wanted it to work, I prayed for it to work and it did. A year ago today I saw my precious baby on a monitor as a tiny embryo and now I look at a 14lb almost 4 month old baby. Amazing. Simply Amazing.

Prayers needed

Please go over to Tanya's blog and send her your prayers & thoughts. She's loosing her angel today...

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

He's sick

My poor baby is sick. He started vomiting and having diarrhea on Saturday and has had it ever since. I took him to the doctor today and they said he has this. Poor baby. I feel so bad for him and I wish I could just take his place. He's been in fairly good spirits though. He was supposed to get his picture taken today but we will have to reschedule. DH stayed home w/him Monday morning and I stayed home w/him Monday afternoon. I was off today. Tomorrow DH is staying home w/him and hopefully he is better by Thursday but if not I will be staying home w/him. This means measly paycheck for us this week. I'm out of PTO days from my maternity leave & DH doesn't get PTO days so that pretty much sucks. I'll keep you girls updated.. send my little guy some fast recovery vibes please!

Saturday, November 13, 2010

A few more pictures

One of his Christmas gifts- an excersaucer!
DH got bored and stuck these in his nose. Haha.

I swear one of these days I will do a meaningful post but for now... quick picture posts is all I have time for!!





Sunday, October 31, 2010

Halloween Pictures!

This was taken a few weeks ago on my front porch.
One of the few pictures I have of him smiling!
Collin the caterpillar!

Happy Halloween!



Friday, October 29, 2010

Damn.

  • I still haven't started my period since Collin's birth. What actually made me think my cycles would be regular now? I was hoping to not have to go on BCP but if my cycles are all screwed up I'll have to. If I don't start this weekend I plan to 1- take a HPT LOL why bother right? 2- call my RE to see if he will continue seeing me for my yearly and help me get my cycles on track. I love my RE so it's totally worth the 2 hour drive to see him. I just hope he will keep seeing me... My OB doctor I liked but he doesn't deliver anymore after this year and I HATE the other 2 in this clinic. Therefore I pretty much refuse to go back there. Damn.
  • Our furnace isn't working. Woke up to 68 degrees in my house. Not cool when you have a 3 month old at home. DH is going to see if he can fix it but if not we'll have to call the heating guys which will cost a pretty penny. Damn.
  • Did I say I'm broke? Yep. All my bills from Collins birth came in wiping out the savings account pretty good. Day care, Collins health ins... ahhhh. I just wish money weren't an issue. I wouldn't want to be rich but just comfortable would be nice. We need to really work on our budget or the little bit left in savings will be gone. We don't have any credit card debt so that good but... I just feel better knowing there is money in saving if something comes up. Like a furnace going out perhaps? Damn.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Another picture post!

Blowing bubbles in his sleep!
My little rock star!
~wink~
One of the few times I caught him smiling on camera!




Tuesday, October 5, 2010

2 month stats!

Collin had his 2 month check up on Friday. He weighed 12lb & was 22 1/2 inches long. That put him in the 60% for weight & 30% on height. Short & chubby =) DH's family runs on the short side so we knew he'd be a little dude =) He got his shots today and did great! He got one in each leg and cried for maybe a minute after and now he's napping. What a big boy he's getting to be! I'm sure once he wakes up he wont be in the best of moods though. He's still sleeping great through the night... last night he went to bed around 8 & didn't get up until 5:30 this morning. He's taking 4-5oz every 2 1/2-3 hours. We've straited out his tummy problems and he's starting to be such a happy boy. He smiles and coos. I love it!! Every time he smiles at me it makes me realize more and more how lucky I am and how worth every surgery, shot and BFN I got, every tear. All worth it. Never forgotten but so worth it! Yesterday was my first day back at work. Amazingly enough it went well. My mom's watching Collin this week so that made it easier. I get to see him on my lunch hour. He starts daycare next Tuesday. That will be the hard part. I plan to go there on my lunch hour at least the first day! I know it will all work out... just hard leaving him. Well I better get off here and get a few things done before he wakes up from his nap. Hope you ladies are doing well!!

Thursday, September 30, 2010

Weird...

I just had a follow up appt to my 6 week postpartum appt. Long story short my episiotomy wasn't healing right but looks to be doing better now so all is good in the down stairs department =). Anywho... my OBGYN gave me a script for birth control and said he'd see me in year. Weird... first off I'm not 100% sure going to take the BCP's I figure what's the point and IF (BIG IF) I would get pregnant that wouldn't be such a bad thing! Second... A YEAR?? I'm so used to having doctor appt after doctor appt... what will I do w/all this free time? LOL. I just can't believe this journey is over. I'm so blessed and I will never forget how lucky I truly am.

Collin has his 2mo checkup tomorrow... he gets his shots. Ugh... I'm probably going to cry more than he does. He's growing so fast... he smiles, coo's, plays w/his hands... he amazes me every day! Can't wait to see how much the porker weighs now!

Monday, September 27, 2010

Breaking my heart

This is my last week of maternity leave. It's really starting to get to me. I feel so much anxiety about leaving him. I'm so thankful that my mom is watching him the first week but I feel so guilty about taking him to daycare w/strangers. I know it will be good for the both of us though. I just look at his sweet face and he smiles and has no clue whats coming. He has no idea that mommy time will only be for a few hours in the evening and on weekends. He will spend more time w/strangers at daycare than he will with me. They will probably witness him roll over for the first time, his first steps, his first words. It breaks my heart into a million pieces. I can't afford to stay home or even go part time... it sucks. I'd give my right arm to at least be able to stay home w/him 2 days during the week. I will probably ball all day Sunday.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Pics & update

He likes the bumbo seat!!
"Worth the Wait" outfit from Izzy!

Hi girls!! How is everyone doing?? Good I hope! We are doing well. Collin has slept through the night twice but usually gets up once in the night to eat. He's 7 weeks old today! Time is going by so fast. He's still doing good on the soy & zantac. Seems to have helped so much. Of course he has fussy times but what baby doesn't? He sleeps great at night but maybe sleeps a total of 1hr during the day. By bed time he's out!! He's been sleeping for about 1 1/2 hrs this morning which is awesome!! I go back to work on Oct 4th. Not looking forward to it! My mom is taking that week off to watch him. He will start daycare on Oct 11th. It's going to be so hard leaving him... just thinking about it gets my stomach in knots. Hope you liked the pictures!





Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Would you want to know?

I've been thinking about the drama that is going down on Nancy's blog. There is some anon putting some seriously mean stuff about her on her blog. Sounds like the person knows her personally. If it were you would you want to know who it was that felt that way about you or would you rather be kept in the dark about it?

Friday, September 10, 2010

New pics!

Collin after his bath- Towel that ^J^ made!
Collin & I after bath time
Me & my dude!
Big Yawn!





Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Pump for sale!

Hi ladies! I have a Medela FreeStyle Hands Free Breast Pump for sale if anyone is interested! I am asking $300 for it. Only used for a few weeks.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

MIA

Sorry girls... my computer broke AGAIN so I have been MIA lately. I'm borrowing my FIL's laptop today but hopefully my computer will be fixed soon. I don't really have much to report... Collin is still doing really good. Getting up around 1am and 4am in the night which is pretty darn good if you ask me! I'm trying to get him on a schedule and so far we are doing well. We have bath time at 7:30 then bottle and Goo.d Night Mo.on book at 8 then it's bed time! Now we just need a morning routine and we're pretty much set! He's starting to get a little fussy so I better get going. Hope you ladies are well!

Saturday, August 28, 2010

A different baby?

Did someone come and steal my baby and bring me a different one? Seriously... he is like a totally different kid. The Za.ntac and Soy formula seems to have done the trick. Collin hasn't had any colicky episodes since Tuesday I believe and has slept in his crib the last 3 nights! I'm so relieved. I'm so happy his little belly is feeling better! I've stopped pumping since he is responding so well to the formula. As much as I hate to do that because I know breast is best I know this is making him feel better and that is what I feel is the best thing for everyone. He is such a porker! According to what I've read he should be eating about 2 1/2oz every 2-3 hours. Well he eats about 3oz at LEAST every 3 hours. Sometimes every 2 1/2 hours. I told him we're going to have to call We.ig.ht Wat.che.rs but he doesn't seem to care much! =) Seriously though I bet he weighs at LEAST 8 lb now. Which is a good thing! I think chubbier babies are so stinkin cute! Holy cow does formula baby poop stink! So much worse than BF babies! I was not prepared for that!! Also when I was changing him earlier today he peed (this is like the 3rd time I've been peed on) and he got it all over the wall!! Cracks me up! I'm just too slow at changing diapies! Well I'm going to get going... hope this post made since... I'm eating lunch and doing this at the same time so my mind is scattered as usual!

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Collin's 3 weeks!

Tomorrow anyway but DH is tending to Collin's needs so I have a minute to write a little update on my main man. I've switched him to Soy Formula. Please don't yell at me girls. I'm still pumping & freezing in case the Soy doesn't fix the problem. Doctor has also put him on Zan.tac for possible GE.RD. I've been giving him gas drops as needed & gripe water every 4 hours. Today hasn't been so bad but the last few nights have been awful. I feel so bad for him. I just cry because there is nothing I can do to help him. I'm sorry if I've been writing poor me pity party stuff... that isn't my intention. I just need advice is all. I hope I'm doing the right things. I know BM is best but I have to try the soy and see if it helps. MIL bought 2 cans and brought it over tonight. Said to let her know when we're out and she'll get more. How sweet. Formula is expensive! Collin is starting to like bath time! He was so content during bath time tonight. After we went on a walk & just got back. In face he's been pretty cry free this evening until now. I hear him in the living room w/DH! It's only 7:40... hopefully he continues to do well! We'll I better get going... I'll leave you w/a picture! Diapie change! He's not a fan!


Saturday, August 21, 2010

Hope this works!

The nursed called to check in w/me yesterday. How awesome is that? She called me! To see how Collin was doing. Wow. Most pedi doctors that I know of don't do that... I think I'm really going to like this place a lot. Thank heavens! Anywho so the nurse called to check in on us and suggested doing away w/the formula bottle all together and just go w/Breast milk & cut dairy out of my diet. So I've stopped that & went back to nursing. I will just pump a bottle if need be. I did that all day yesterday and so far today. He still screamed pretty much all day yesterday. I fed on demand. No restrictions, no bottles. I'm at a loss. So far he's been good today BUT it's only 1:00. After talking w/my mom & DH's mom we both had colic as babies and had to be put on Soy milk. I'm supposed to call the doc on Monday and let them know how things went this weekend and depending on how the weekend goes I may suggest putting him on the Soy formula and see what happens. I will keep pumping to keep up my supply in case that doesn't work. The nurse also suggested giving him Gripe Water. I'd never heard of it but it's some natural liquid stuff that Wal.gre.ens sells to help w/colic so we've been giving him that every 4 hours as well. Wish me luck ladies! Yesterday was brutal. I was about in tears all day because I felt so bad for him. Just the look on his face like he's in pain kills me & there is nothing I can do about it. Anyone out there w/colic babies have any suggestions or words of wisdom? I can't believe that colic peaks at 6 weeks & it only gets worse before it gets better... this is probably selfish of me to even say this but I hate that my whole maternity leave w/him will be filled w/him crying all day. I feel like we won't get to have any fun together or time to really bond before I go back to work. I hate to wish these weeks away but I have been... just counting the days before he feels better so we can really be a family.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Colic

Collin might have Colic. I feel terrible. There is just nothing I can do to soothe him sometimes. He doesn't have crying fits often but when he does it's usually about 1/2 hour after a feeding and he goes crazy like he's starving. Starts rooting and sucking on his hands vigorously. I called the doc and apparently that is a sign of Colic and it starts around 2 weeks. He's been eating 2oz of breast milk every 2 hours. Doc said I can give him 2 1/2 every 2 hours but no more than that. She thinks he isn't really hungry... and giving him more will only make it worse. Last night was awful.. he took a 2oz bottle of breast milk at 8 and then screamed bloody murder like he was hungry so I then gave him 2oz of formula... he continued to scream so DH took him on a short walk... seemed to calm him down for a whole 10min. I finally caved and gave him the breast at 10:30 and then he was satisfied. He didn't need all of that... but that was the only thing I could do to calm him down. Hopefully tonight is better. I just have to let him cry and not give in and give him more to eat. It's so hard to let him cry though. I bought a M.o.b.y wrap so hopefully that will help too. Oh and did I mention that I have a clogged milk duct? I'm not getting stressed or anything.. nope. Not me. Not one bit. =) How are you girls?? Someone tell me some good news!??!?!?!

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

This feels good!

Today has went perfectly! Collin has took a bottle of breast milk every 2-2 1/2 hours and I've been able to pump every 3 and gotten 2oz+ every time! Seems to be working great. Last night we gave him a formula bottle at 11:30ish and he didn't wake up until 2:30ish. We then nursed at 2:30, 4:30 and about 6:30. When we actually got up around 8:30we started the day w/a breast milk bottle and pumping. I've been pumping when he's sleeping. I feel such a wave of relief. I just hope I'm not jumping the gun here & this actually works! We ran a few errands today- ordered our pictures, went to the post office, stopped by my grandpa's, and got BK for lunch. Fun stuff! haha. He did really good... got a bit fussy in the car but not bad. It's been a good day so far! Hope everyone is doing well! I've been trying my best to keep up w/everyone but if I've missed anything please forgive me!

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

2 week check up!

Collin weighed 6lb 9oz at birth and now weighs 7lb 6oz. He's getting big! I had a nice chat w/the doc and decided that I'm going to supplement w/formula and pump. Seems like the best decision for me at this time. I hope it's the right one. At least he will still be getting some breast milk. He's wanting to nurse every hour and cries if he isn't at the breast. Doc thinks he's basically using my boob as his pacifier. We will start using pacies as well to hold him off on eating if need be. I can't feed him every hour. It's just not possible. I sure hope this works... it's stressing me out and I feel awful for not nursing him anymore. Other than our feeding problems he's doing great! Go back on Oct 1st for his 2 month check & immunizations. Ick.

Friday, August 13, 2010

I don't like it

Breastfeeding that is. I just don't like it. I feel as though I don't do anything else besides feed Collin. He wants to nurse sometimes every hour. I feel so guilty if I stop but this just isn't for me. I started pumping last night but have only got a total of 3oz. I know it will keep coming and I'm hoping pumping will do the trick. Until then... I'm still breastfeeding. Talk me down girls... tell me not to go towards what's easiest- formula. Not that there's anything wrong w/that but I was just so dead set on bf that I'm really letting myself down if I stop after 1 1/2 weeks. I know I just need to give it time.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Picture time!

It may have taken me a week but here are some pics of Collin! Sorry it took me so long! We are doing well. Trying to get nursing off to a good start but he's wanting to sleep through feedings. Kind of stressful but I'm working on it! He's also wanting to be held when he sleeps so we're having trouble sleeping in the crib and working on that as well! Other than that doing great! Planning on taking a visit to my MIL's tomorrow for a wee bit to get out of the house. We'll see if I make it there!

Tummy Time!
Before we left the hospital. In his own cloths & car seat.

Right after he was born!!

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Birth Story!

Hi girls! Here's Collin's birth story for you... Sorry about the lack of pictures. Hubby is supposed to help me get them on here tonight!

Well as you know I had an OB appt on Tuesday. At my appt I was still dilated to a 2-3 but was fully effaced. Doc said to make an appt for Monday so we left it at that. Well around 2a.m. I woke up w/a contraction. A new contraction. One I hadn't felt before... this one actually hurt a bit. So I kept laying in the recliner and had another one maybe 20 min later. I slept a lot on the recliner during my pregnancy... just more comfortable. Anyway so I then got up and went to lay in bed w/DH and he was awake. I said to him that I thought Collin would be born today because of these different contractions I'd just had. I decided I wasn't going to fall back asleep so I was going to just get up and get on the computer for a bit. So I sat up and felt a gush. I said "OMG I think my water just broke" and got up and went to the bathroom. Of course DH is up as soon as I said that. So I'm in the bathroom... pull down my underwear and its all bloody. Bright red blood. I sat on the toilet and almost immediately there is a clot that comes out and the whole toilet is filled w/blood. I called the hospital and told them what happened. I said I've only had 2 contractions but I just think there is too much blood here to be my bloody show. They said to go ahead and come up and they would take a look see. So we hurry up and finish packing our bags and left. We only live 5 min from the hospital. So by the time we actually got to the hospital which was maybe 30min after I called I had had a total of maybe 6 contractions. We get up into the labor and delivery room, they nurse checks me and I'm dilated to a freaking 9! Yes that's right a 9! I almost shit myself. I was barley even having contractions and the ones I was having weren't even that bad. So my mom and DH's mom and dad get to the hospital but were only in the room for maybe 15min before the doc was there w/my epidural so they had to leave. I got my Epid. and maybe an hour later I was at a 10. My waters were still intact though so the OB on call (not my OB) comes in breaks my water and it's time to push. I push for maybe 30min and then the OB whips out the suction thing and cuts me and out he comes! I was oh so very lucky! I was in labor a total of 4 1/2 hours if you count the minor contractions that begun at 2am until Collin was born at 6:27am. I'm a bit pissed that the OB did the suction and episiotomy w/out my asking for it and there not being a medical reason why we had to get him out right away... I think that OB is a jerk and just wanted to hurry up and go back home. We got released Thursday evening at 6 and things are going well... My milk came in today, which is awesome! I think Collin was getting a little upset that he wasn't getting much from me! He isn't a fan of his crib but we're working on that. He loves his bouncy/vibrating seat. I'm feeling pretty good. My episiotomy hurts but it's getting better. I'm not looking forward to DH going back to work Monday. It's been great having him here to help me. Okay I know this is all over the place and I probably don't make much since but I'm a bit tired! I'll try my best to keep you girls updated on baby! But for now... I'm going to try and take a nap before dinner!

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Collin's First Photo Shoot!

Hi girls! I don't have time to post the pics that we took at the hospital but he had a photo shoot today at the hospital! I know the owner of this place and she came up to the hospital and took these pics for FREE! She is starting the "Hello World" package and wanted to use him as one of her models. Woohoo!! Anywho... go to here hit client viewing at the bottom and then children, pick Collin and password is collin. The more photo shopped ones should be on the "Hello World" link soon. Hope you guys like! We think he's pretty awesome!

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

He's Here!

Collin William Lee has arrived! He was born at 6:27am and weighed 6lb 9oz. 19 inches long. We are both doing great! Pics & birth story to come!

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

39 week appt update!

Completely effaced but still only dilated to a 2-3. Apparently this is common for first time moms. Doc says things are going perfectly. I go back Monday morning and will most likely be induced at midnight if I haven't gone into labor yet. Doc says I very well won't make it till Monday anyway. I never thought I'd want to be induced... I wanted it to happen naturally but I've completely changed my mind. I'm just so worried that something will go wrong at the last minute that I'm thinking there is no way I want to go past my due date. After that day he's ready for sure so lets just get him out before anything can happen. Maybe that's stupid but I just think of all the bad things that could go wrong like the cord getting around his neck or something and it freaks me out. So anywho... any day for sure now! Wish me luck ladies. This could be the last update you get from me until the big announcement! =) Love you girls and praying for you everyday!

~Thank you for all the condolences about my aunts passing. We got back some of the autopsy results.... they think it was dehydration from her being sick that week and vomiting. The dehydration caused her heart to get off beat which then caused edema in the lungs. Crazy.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Shitty weekend

Well this was a shitty weekend...

~ My aunt passed away yesterday. She was 58. Out of 7 kids... only 2 remain on my dads side of the family. The 2 that are alive live in California. My family is pretty much gone & I hate it. I hate that my son will barely know that part of our family. We aren't sure what caused my aunts death at this point but they are doing an autopsy tomorrow. Apparently she wasn't feeling well and even saw a doctor on Wed. My grandpa hadn't heard from her for a few days so we went to bring her some soup yesterday and found her dead in bed. She lives alone, never been married, no kids. She either had a heart attack as this runs in my family and killed my dad & one of my uncles, or it was a mixture of her blood pressure meds & booze. She'd become quite an alcoholic since my grandma's death a few years ago, it just killed my aunt. She was miserable and unhappy... I know she's in a better place but I hate that she died all alone. She was a great aunt, we had so much fun w/her as kids but after loosing all her siblings & her mom it just slowly killed her. Her visitation will probably be Wed w/funeral on Thurs.

~ A girl from work who is due about 5 weeks after me ended up in the hospital last night. She was having contractions & come to find out it was a horrible UTI. They gave her meds to stop the contractions but she is now on bed rest for at least 2 weeks. Thank god her and baby are doing good right now though. How scary.

~ What does all of this mean for me? Well I'll be working my ass off next week because we will be short handed, so no more PT & resting for me. And I'll have a funeral to work around as well. All the while I could go into labor at any minute. I'm stressed and fucking upset. This wasn't how things were supposed to be. I'm tired, I'm sore and I want to rest. I'm trying to stay calm because I don't want to go into labor right now, I can't. I was so afraid I would last night... I didn't want Collins birth to be the day of my aunts death, and I don't want to miss the funeral either. Fuck, I shouldn't have to worry about this shit. I'm supposed to be happy and excited right now and all I want to do is fucking cry.

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Still hanging out!

Not much to report... still having contractions sporadically. I'm working part time next week to rest up and get prepared! Next appt is Tuesday at 4... if I haven't went into labor yet that is =) I'll keep you girls posted!! I may borrow my FIL laptop to give a quick update from the hospital or have DH just put something quick on here when he comes home for the dogs. I don't want to leave you ladies in the dark!! Hope all is well w/you girls... sorry I've been a bad commenter lately, my mind is just scattered. I've been trying to keep up w/reading though!

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Houston we have dilation!

Just got back from my OB appt and I'm dilated to a 2-3 and my cervix has started thinning. He could be here any day or could be weeks away but at least it's progress!! I had some more contractions in the night that were somewhat painful but still very, very mild. I'm hoping to make it to Sunday at least. I'm supposed to work this week so I'd like to finish that out then I'm ready!! I have to say getting checked for dilation sucks ass. It was not a comfortable experience what so ever! I'll keep you girls posted!

Saturday, July 24, 2010

Completed nursery pics!

Closet full of stuff!
Bookcase, toy box & frog chair

Changing table/dresser

Crib!

Contractions take 2

They're gone. Haha. Literally. I may have had 3 in the night and that's it. They stayed pretty consistent for a while and then slow started getting further apart and now... nothing. Must have just been the BH contractions and not the real thing. I feel so stupid.... I really don't know what to expect or what I should be looking for. I've read all the books and took all the classes but still... it's hard to tell what's real and what isn't. Now we keep waiting!

Friday, July 23, 2010

Contractions

Been feeling them all day. They are sporadic. Sometimes its 2 hours and sometimes its 10 min apart. It feels like menstrual cramps and my belly gets really tight. Having some awesome lower back pain as well. It's getting so close, I'm excited and nervous all in one. Bags are packed for the most part and ready to go! I can't believe this, I still can't. I don't think the shock will ever wear off.

I can't wait to meet you Collin, but not tonight. You need to stay put another week at least okay? =)

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Need advice!

Blood work today confirmed my friends m/c. She has an appt tomorrow w/her doctor so hopefully they will come up w/a new plan for next time. Right now all they are making her take is baby aspirin and folic acid. Is that enough? For those of you w/MTHFR isn't there anything else her doc can do? She really needs to see an RE instead of the shitty OBGYN's we have here in town. I want to tell her that but I don't know if I should or how to say it. I feel so stuck right now. I feel horrible for her and I want to do something but what? What do I say? I mean here I am ready to have my baby any day and she just lost hers. I wouldn't blame her one bit if she didn't want anything to do w/me right now and I wont be upset if she doesn't come around me or the baby. What would you girls do?

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Prayers Please

Hi girls... please send some thoughts & prayers out to my friend who had her 4th m/c today. She has MTHFR. I've mentioned her before. Anyway she was only about 5 weeks along and started bleeding today. I feel horrible. She's loosing her baby as mine is getting ready to be born. I'm glad she has her 2 year old girl... I know that doesn't make up for it but I'm glad she has her to hold onto right now.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

37 week appt update

I had my 37 week OB appt today. Disappointing to say the least. My doc ended up getting called out in the middle of our appt so I didn't get to ask half the stuff I wanted to. I can't be mad at him though... he was needed at the hospital and that will be me in a few weeks doing it to someone else. I just hate that their so busy there... def not the same kind of treatment I got at my RE's office. I miss them like crazy. My OB still didn't check for dilation but should at next week's appt. He said Collin is in the process of dropping but hasn't completed his journey yet. Which means the groin pain can only get worse. Ack. I've slept in the recliner w/a heating pad on for the past 2 nights. I shouldn't complain, and I'm trying not to but it really is painful. When I walk it's just shooting pain in the hooha. Collin needs to stay put for at least 2 more weeks so as long as he's good and healthy I will be fine! Doc says he probably weighs about 6lb right now. Seems to be right on track! They didn't say anything about my Strep B results so I'm guessing that came back negative. That was one of the things I planned to ask him about.... oh well next week hopefully I will be able to nail him w/all the questions I can think of!

Friday, July 16, 2010

36 week belly pic!

As requested! 36 week belly pic! I think I actually look smaller in this pic than some of the past weeks. This was taken last night after I supposedly dropped Wednesday. Maybe that's why? Groin pain is a bit better today but def still there. May have started the BH contractions as well. They don't hurt but I just feel my belly getting tighter. Could just be Collin moving around too, I'm not sure. I think I'm just over analyzing every little feeling right now. I can't believe he'll be here w/in the next 3-4 weeks. Totally crazy! I'll keep you girls posted w/the progress!

~Oh this picture is taken in my bathroom (same place as the others) that we are remodeling! This is our new tub w/primer on the walls. Ya like? Should be done tomorrow! Woohoo!!

Thursday, July 15, 2010

I've Dropped

People have been telling me this for about a week and I thought they were all nuts. Last night I took a breastfeeding class and got up to leave and oh my god did my groin hurt. I could barely walk. I think Collin has officially dropped and his head is wedged right in the birth canal. I'm waddling big time now and in quite a bit of pain! Won't be long =)

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Baby shower pictures


The loot! Lots of clothes!

More loot! Lots of diapers!
Gift table!
Table Decoration!
Cake & Lemonade table- there was a food tabel next to it but I don't have a good pic of that.
Diaper table/baby pics of DH & I and Collin's u/s pic.

The cake!

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

35 weeks!

5 more weeks to go! God willing! I had a bit of a scare today... this morning I was ~cough~ taking a poo ~cough~ and after I wiped the front I noticed some blood mixed w/discharge on the tp. My first thought was oh my god... I'm having my bloody show! So I pick up the "What to expect" book and start reading and sure enough that's what it seemed to be. I called the Dr's office as soon as it opened this morning and they said to just keep an eye on it since I haven't been having any contractions or cramping. Hopefully it was just an isolated incident caused from the BM. Freaked me the hell out though! I feel fine so I'm sure it was nothing but Collin needs to stay in there an cook a bit longer!! I'm still sleeping horribly and been really tired but other than that I'm doing really good. I had a doctors appt yesterday and things seem to be going well, baby seems to be right on track. I have my Strep B test next week and start getting my cervix checked every week until D Day! I can't believe I have 5 more weeks at most left until I meet my little guy. Amazing. Simply amazing!! We've bought everything for him that we didn't get off our registry but still need...

Bottles- to use after I go back to work and have to pump
Baby monitor- sold out at Wally World
Clothes- got a tun at the shower but I feel like I need more! Going shopping w/MIL in a few weeks at C.ar.ter.s as part of my shower gift from her.

After those few things we will be ready and it's time to work on myself! I'm going to start getting my bag ready for the hospital and need to get some new PJ type pants and slippers. I also plan to get some pretty panties to have for after and use my old crappy ones after he's born and I'm bleeding like crazy! Bought my breast pump Monday. $400 flippin dollars on the pump & 2 bras! Geesh! I hope I can actually breastfeed or I'm out some dough! I spent the extra cash on the hands free Me.d.e.la pump. Since I have to work FT I needed a good one that was fast so I can get er done during my lunch hour. Okay I've blabbed too much... I need to do some dishes and clean up the house a bit.

Love you ladies! Praying for you all! Some treatment cycles are starting up for you guys... I'm really excited and have my fingers crossed for some BFP's this month!!

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Baby Shower

~Pics to come~

Collin made out like a bandit at the shower! Tons of cute cloths, bibs, socks, diapers, you name it, he got it! There were some big ticket items we didn't receive but DH and I plan to get those over the next few weeks (swing, glider, monitor, yada yada). We went to Wal.Mar.t last night and used up all our gift cards & money to get the things off our registry that we didn't receive but would need when he arrives. I'm off today and plan to go to Ko.hl.s and use my $50 worth of gift cards there and get some blankets and maybe some more sleepers. My MIL is taking me shopping here in a few weeks for some more cloths for him at the Car.te.r's store & I'm really looking forward to that!

The shower was great. My friends/family did a great job w/everything. The decorations were so cute! I had a good turn out of people that showed up. I was really nervous at first and just felt really uncomfortable being the center of attention but I got used to it and now I'm kind of sad that it's over. Sunday night I thought I was just going to fall asleep standing up... the shower was over at 4, cleaned everything up and got home around 5. The DH surprised me w/Mexican take out. MMMM.. he's not so bad =)

Hope you ladies are doing well as always! We are so due for some good news... who's it gonna be!!?? It's time!

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Oh good lord.

I have approximately 4-6 weeks before Collin gets here. Holy crap I'm nervous.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

33 week update!

Hi ladies! Technically I'm not 33 weeks until tomorrow but I thought I'd do a quick update since I haven't in a few weeks. Starting to swell a bit in my hands, feet & face but nothing to bad. Back is starting to hurt and just all around been tired from sleeping like crap. All & all I'm feeling good though! Had an appt yesterday and things are looking good. Go back in another 2 weeks & then start going every week and getting checked for dilation! Holy crap is this moving along quickly! I have my baby shower this Sunday- my friends pulled through & I'm thinking it's going to be a great time! I can't wait =) I hope you ladies are well and as always finger crossed & praying for you all!!
~A big shout out to Sherry (ssbean) on her BFP!~

Monday, June 7, 2010

31 week u/s pics!!


Hi girls! Here are the u/s pics from our visit today!! He cooperated much better for the tech & she got all the measurements she needed. He wouldn't turn his head for us though so no good face shots this time! He is in the 48Th percentile & weighs about 3lb 6oz. Doc says basically he's perfect! Greatest thing I've ever heard! So thankful! I'll try and explain these pics a bit but I really don't get how the tech knew what this stuff was so here goes nothing...

1- Foot, knee & toes. Kind of hard to tell. The little ball thing is actually his other foot. 2- His hand. He was kind of waving at us! Kept opening & closing it. 3- boy parts! Can't tell can ya!? LOL. He's one proud boy! 4- profile shot. Go back again in another 2 weeks!








Friday, June 4, 2010

30 Week Belly Pic!


As requested! Sorry I haven't been good at getting these on here. I will try and keep up better as my belly is growing at a rapid rate these days! We had our first labor & delivery class last night. It was.... interesting. I originally thought I wanted to go all natural and not take any pain meds... I totally change my mind! After watching that video I am plain terrified. Still doing good... just not sleeping much and still having the groin pain. I wake up about 3 times a night to pee and just can't get comfortable and I'm always hot. Bring on the rest of Summer! LOL. We have our last u/s on Monday so I'll get those pics on here as well. Can't wait to see the little guy one last time before I get to actually hold him in my arms. Amazing. I am so blessed. I wish all you ladies the same. I'm always thinking of you girls. Anyway... hope you ladies have a great weekend. Sending you lots & lots of ((((HUGS))))

Monday, May 31, 2010

Go Celine!

Celine Dion is expecting twins via IVF! She is like my favorite singer ever and I am sooooo happy for her! I love reading stuff like this in the news because I think it really makes people open up to IVF and the fact that IF can touch anyone.

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Well this pissed me off...

Vent time ladies! So I'm at my in laws enjoying a cookout when my SIL proceeds to tell me what her cousin said about me the other day. Apparently this girl that barely even knows me but is friends w/my cousin said "I heard Jayme still isn't eating. I feel sorry for her baby." WTF! First of all I've never had an eating problem. I eat what I want, when I want. Lucky for me I just don't gain much weight. I've always been like this and my mom is the same way. I've gained 20lb so far in my pregnancy which is text book freaking perfect. I can't even believe that this chick said this about me and it pisses me off that she feels sorry for my baby! Like he isn't getting enough nutrients or something. I'd be damned if I were to deprive my baby of something because I don't want to gain weight. Who the fuck does she think she is? Of all that I went through to even get pregnant and she thinks I'd be worried about gaining some pregnancy weight. Whatever. DH says I shouldn't even worry about it, she's a moron, who cares. I just want to hunt her down and punch her in the nose & my cousin who supposedly told her this crap to begin with. UGH!

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

It's hump day!

Hi Ladies! It's Wednesday! Thank heavens. I'm off this weekend. 3 days! Woohoo! DH and I are going shopping Saturday for some maternity jeans & shelving for our little guys closet. After that the room is pretty much done. There isn't much on the walls but I figure that will come in time. I'm 29 weeks today! I know you ladies are wanting a belly pic. I PROMISE I will post my 30 week one next week. I had a OB appt on Monday and things are looking good still. No problems other than the groin pain. Doc said he's probably just laying head down pressing on a nerve. Our next appt is June 7Th & we get an u/s! Yeah! Can't wait to see his cute face again! Next Thursday we have our first labor & delivery class! I'm really excited! I can't believe how fast everything is going. Oh an my boobs have started leaking Colostrum, which is a premilk that the baby will feed off of until my milk comes in. They have been hurting pretty badly so I figured it was coming. I now get to wear the lovely breast pads in my bra! No more boobie touching for my hubs!

Our A/C is fixed! Ahh thank god. Apparently the fan motor broke. It cost $245.00 to fix but man was it worth it! There was no way I was going to spend another night in this house w/out it. It was up to 87 in my house at one point. I ended up sleeping in nothing but my underwear on the couch. Our couch is leather and man was my sweaty body sticking to it! I'm sure it was a site to see!

Hope all is well w/you girls!!

Sunday, May 23, 2010

I am getting so hot

I'm gonna take my clothes off! Yep that's right... I'm rapping that song. The a/c in our house has decided to stop working on the hottest damn day of the year so far. The first day I broke down and turned the damn thing on. OMG I am miserable. Its currently 85 degrees in my house and just typing is making me work up a sweat. I'm sitting here in the shortest pair of pj shorts I own and my shirt rolled up under my bra. This friggin sucks. I really hope the a/c guy can get here soon or I'm getting a hotel for the night!

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Accomplishment!

Wow I feel such a sense of accomplishment this weekend! I had to work yesterday, which sucked! Our computer system was down 1/2 the morning & on a weekend... customers were not happy that we couldn't give them balances! Oh well I enjoy a good bitching on occasion =) Anywho... so after work I got my house clean, did some laundry and even got a nap in before going out to dinner w/the hubby. After that we came home and played C.rani.um. Fun game if you've never played. Your supposed to have at least 4 players but DH and I play together just for fun. Today we slept in until about 9 then went to Ko.hls to get me another pair of maternity jeans. Yeah, they have NO JEANS! Not one pair. Just shorts & capris. I don't wear either because I hate my legs. So it looks like I'm stuck w/the one pair that I actually like until we can get out of town in the next few weeks. After Ko.hls we went to Wal.Ma.rt and did some grocery shopping & officially completed our Baby Registry! I'm go glad! I feel so much better knowing that I have everything on there that I need and if I don't get it at the shower I can just go down my list and get it myself. DH pretty much finished the nursery this weekend as well. All we have left to do is get the shelving for the closet. I really want to get the closet organizer thinger that has shelves & bars to hang stuff up. I think it will help keep stuff organized and give us more space as his closet is pretty small.

I'm feeling pretty good most of the time. My sciatica has been a lot better this weekend but I now got this aching groin pain. The OB nurse said it's just because he is so low and it will most likely keep getting worse. As soon as I get off here I'm hooking myself up w/the heating pad & watching a movie! I passed my glucose test! Thank heavens. Also I wanted to say thank you so very much ladies for the BF advice! I signed up for a BF class at the hospital so I'm really looking forward to that. I registered for the Playtex drop in bottles. I've heard the best stuff about them so hopefully he'll like them!

About his name... as of right now it is COLLIN! It could change but that has been what we've been calling him for about a month now so I'm pretty sure that's what we are sticking with. We need to finalize it though so I can order the wooden letters for his room!

Hope all is well for you wonderful ladies! Summer is almost here & the flowers are a`blooming! There's something about it that always puts me in a good mood.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Updated on me & baby

Hi ladies! How's everyone doing today? Hopefully the nasty storms have missed everyone and your homes are still intact. It's been rainy & windy here but haven't had any major damage. My poor yard is one soggy mess though! DH is starting to get pissed because he can't get the landscaping done. Getting the landscaping done for the year is his main goal, then finishing the nursery & then onto the bathroom. He's starting to get stressed. He's a great carpenter though so I know he'll get it all done & it will be perfect! Speaking of stress... I'm really stressing about finances. I never realised how much daycare cost. We will be paying the same amount in daycare a month as we do for our house payment! Holy crap! We have him signed up at a daycare here in town, just down the road from us but we are thinking an in home daycare would be better and cheaper so we are looking into that as well. The one thing I hate about this daycare is that I have to pay whether he is there or not. That sucks. I have every other Tuesday off and plan to keep him at home w/me and have mommy/son time and still have to pay for him to be at daycare. I know they have to do it that way but... most in home daycare's don't do that. So far everyone I know of that babysits is full so I'm on a list that goes out to everyone in the town that is registered. Ack. Hopefully someone good comes up. I'm absolutely terrified at going back to work and leaving him w/strangers.

Had my 27week apt today. Baby is doing great. H/B was great. My belly is measuring at a perfect size they say... even though they didn't actually measure it? Weird. I took my glucose test but wont hear back if we passed or not for a few days. That liquid is gross. We start going every 2 weeks now. I'll have another u/s at 31 weeks. So exciting! I can't believe how fast this has gone by. I've gained a total of 17lbs so far! Right on track according to the books. Seems a bit high to me though. Oh well I'd rather gain too much than not enough.

I bought a nursing cover yesterday at a maternity store here in town. It was 20% off so I couldn't pass it up. DH is kind of being an ass about breastfeeding. He thinks it's weird that I will just start breastfeeding if we are somewhere and thinks I should pump. I do plan to pump, actually I wont have a choice once I go back to work but I do plan to breastfeed the majority of time while I'm at home. I'm going to take a breastfeeding class but right now I'm so nervous about it. I have so many questions and concerns. For those of you that did pump, what kind of pump did you use? Did you buy or rent? What kind of bottles did you use? I'm starting to freak a little.

Update on my work friend- her HSG came back great. No blockage. Her IUI was canceled Saturday. Yeah canceled. She is going to a GYNO here in town (moron) who thinks he is an IF doctor. He put her on clomid and had her come in Saturday- CD14 for an u/s, her IUI and THEN GIVE HER HCG? WTF... HCG after the IUI? What a dumb ass. I'm smarter than him. Anywho... so her follies were only at 15mm so he told her to come back next month and they'd up her clomid dose and try again. HELLO! I've never O'd on CD14 w/or w/out meds. He should have had her come back in a few days for another u/s not just cancel her. I'm trying to remain grounded and offer her the best advice I can w/out upsetting her but really... I wish she would see an RE instead of wasting her time w/this quack. She wont be able to get on our ins at work until Nov so hopefully then once IF is covered for her she will move on to someone who knows what they are doing. Poor girl. Her hubby is in the military and wont even been home next month or all summer for that matter so now she's pushed back until Aug or so. GRRR.

So I've blabbed enough & this got really long. Sorry! Hope you are all doing well. Love you girls & praying for you daily!

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Prayers for friends

Crazy to think that when I was going through my IF treatments I didn't have a IRL friend that I could talk to about my feelings and what was going on w/my screwed up body. Now I know so many people going through IF and I hate it. It just isn't fair for this to happen to any of us.

My "fertile friend" that I have talked about many times has been diagnosed w/MTHFR. She had a miscarriage many years ago before she was TTC at about 11 weeks. A few years later she decided she was ready to become a mom (right when I started TTC) and got PG on her first try and now has a happy, healthy 2 year old daughter. She started TTC for #2 around Jan and has since had 2 m/c. All of the times I was so mad at her for trowing it in my face how fertile she was I feel so bad about it now. It just shows that you never know... your 1st might come easy but you might not have it so easy the next time. I do hope the meds her doc is putting her on will help and she will be able to have #2 in the future.

One of my good friends from work whom I used to be best friends w/back in HS is having her first HSG tomorrow and her first IUI on Saturday. I'm so excited for her and her hub. She's very nervous right now and I just hope it works for her. Thinking back at all my failed IUI's and just how much it breaks you just makes me want to cry for her. I hate that she is having to deal with this.

I hope all of you are well... we are due for some good news around here for sure. It's been too long! I'm doing well. My UTI is cleared up thank god. Been having back aches and a pain down my right leg which I'm told is most likely the baby laying on a nerve. Little turd!

Monday, May 3, 2010

100 Days

My ticker says 100 days until my due date. Holy crap. This is going by soooo fast. I feel so unprepared. I have so much left to do & so much to buy!

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Back to normal!

Thank god! I finally feel back to my self again. I can go about 2 hours w/out having to pee which I haven't been able to do in a week! I only woke up twice last night to pee! Ahh I'm so glad. I really thought I was going to go crazy. I just felt so helpless and felt like it was never going to go away. The new meds seem to be working and I haven't had any more of that nasty indigestion! WOOHOO! Today I'm 25 weeks. Wow, time flies. Thanks again for all your concern ladies =)

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

1st trip to the ER

Yep, ER. My OB changed my antibiotic because it wasn't working and it turns out I am severely allergic. I'm not allergic to anything. I woke up itching to death and had a rash all over (yes all over) and my bottom lip looked like Bubba from Forest Gump. What woke me up in the first place was a horrible case of indigestion. I took a few Rolaids & then started throwing up. DH & I went to the ER around 3:30 and didn't get home until after 7. They gave me IV fluids, Zantac, & Benadryl. I'm now on Amoxicillan 3x a day & Zantac 2x a day. Pee hole is still bugging me, I really don't think an antibiotic is going to do the trick. I am so miserable & tired. I stayed home from work today to get some rest but shit I can't rest when I'm constantly in the bathroom feeling like I have to pee... I hope this clears up soon or I'm going to loose my mind.

Monday, April 26, 2010

Appt Update

Hi ladies! Well the OB did an u/s of my bladder and an external exam. My bladder is emptying fine & the urethra looks good w/no blockage. Looks as though it's just a bad infection. He did change my antibiotic and if I'm not better by Wednesday they are going to reevaluate and possibly send me to a urologist. Fun, fun. I'm hoping this new antibiotic works and I get some sleep tonight. I did get to see baby's head in my u/s! It wasn't one of the nice u/s machines though so I really wouldn't have been able to tell it was his head if I didn't ask... I thought it was my bladder! Baby seems to be doing fine, HB was fine so I guess we'll just wait & see. Thanks for all your thoughts & concerns. Love you girls!

Pee hole appt.

I go to see my OB doctor today at 4:10 for my pee problems. I told them I was worried about my kidney's and how this is affecting the baby so they said the doc wanted to see me. I'm hoping they do and u/s to check my kidneys & baby so I can be at ease a little. I'm just really worried that something is way wrong... if this was just a UTI it should be better by now. I'll update you when I can tonight.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

My poor pee hole

Ugh... this UTI is NOT getting any better. I'm on day 4 of antibiotics and it just seems to be getting worse. My pee hole just throbs. I feel like there is something stuck in there. I took a hot bath last night, didn't work. I ended up putting a heating pad on low and sticking it between my legs. I finally feel asleep. I got up to pee a few times in the night and was okay, woke up this morning and BAM it's back. I just don't understand why the antibiotics aren't making me feel better... this is just a miserable feeling.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Miss me??

Hi girls! Sorry I've been gone... my computer at home was full of viruses and couldn't be saved. We now have a used computer that my IT guy from work had and was able to transfer my pics and such to this computer. What a mess! I hate not having a computer! I was able to check email & get on facebook a bit at work but I didn't want to get on here because I didn't want someone to find my blog at work! I hope everyone is well & please comment & give me your updates as I will probably never get through all the posts since I've been away.

On baby news... I had my 24 week appt on Tuesday and things went well. Baby boy is doing great! We now start going every 3 weeks. My next appt I get to take the lovely glucose test which I hear is pretty nasty stuff! I'm so excited to be going every 3 weeks now... his arrival will be here before I know it! We've done our registry for the shower, the room is almost complete.. and now we wait! He's quite the little mover. I'm constantly getting kicked, not sure when the kid sleeps! Oh and did I fail to mention I have ANOTHER UTI INFECTION! Yeah, not fun what so ever. I feel much better today but I thought I was going to die yesterday. Apparently when you're pregnant you're more susceptible to them so I'm sure I'll have a few more before due day. Small price to pay for getting the incredible blessing I have. Other than the UTI I've been doing good. Sleeping is pretty difficult as my sides hurt when I sleep on them and I can't sleep on my back so I toss and turn a lot. I will get a belly pic on here soon... it's still on my camera so I'll have to get it on this new computer. Ugh computer... all my icons and everything are gone. GRRR. I hate viruses!

Don't forget to update me on what's going on in your lives! I hope all is well!

Thursday, April 8, 2010

22 Week belly pic!!


Hi girls! Here is my 22 week belly pic w/a sneak peak at the baby bed. You get an idea of what the bedding & wall color is like. It's not done yet so that's the only pic I'm going to show until its complete! DH has been working like a dog so hopefully he'll at least have all the painting done this weekend. We still have shelving in the closet to do and hanging stuff on the walls and such. I'm going to put up lettering w/his name on it. So far his name is Collin! But that could always change so I'm waiting on the letters for a while. Hope you like! Praying for some BFP's... I know its testing time for many of you. Fingers are crossed!

Monday, April 5, 2010

Monday Randoms

Hi ladies! Sorry I've been so MIA lately. I've been so blah and tired lately. I've been sleeping like crap. No way is comfortable. I'm going to do some bullets because I have misc stuff to say both pregnancy & non pregnancy related!
  • I think my little boy is the cutest baby ever. I haven't even seen his real face yet but by looking at the u/s pics, yep he's the cutest.
  • Like I said... been sleeping like shit. I've tried both of my sides & got a body pillow to cuddle w/and it's not working! The only way that is comfortable is my back & you're not supposed to sleep on your back because it can press on some main artery to your heart. Not good. So basically I just toss and turn until my body finally gives out and just passes out. LOL. Not complaining though... totally love it =)
  • The nursery is coming along great. Walls are painted, furniture is together, bedding is on (not washed yet of course). Just have to put some shelving in the closets & get the window treatments up. EEK. The walls are a light green & the bedding is light blue w/frogs. Too cute. I love frogs. My MIL says his first word is going to be "ribbit."
  • Work has been going "okay." We had a meeting tonight and are making some changes so I'm HOPING that everyones attitudes get a little better. I'm hoping to find something different once the baby comes.. I'd love to be able to work 3-4 days a week and still get ins. which I know is pretty much impossible but our hospital works that way so I'm hoping to get on there somehow. Wishful thinking. I'm just having a hard time w/leaving him... he's not even born yet & I can tell you that it's going to be so hard to hand him over to some stranger at day care. Just the thought makes me want to cry. Ugh.
  • Tomorrow is DH's b-day & mine is Saturday. We aren't doing anything... hopefully do some relaxing but I'm sure something will come up. DH wants to get a bicycle for his b-day. One of those old man beach cruiser types. What a dork. I'm putting my b-day money towards a Glider & Ottoman. Now, who's the adult here? hehe
  • I have a surprise bridal shower for my friend on Sunday. I'm the matron of honor! I'm going to be huge at her wedding! I ordered my dress 6 sizes too big but I think I'm going to be swimming in it. My belly is getting pretty big but not as big as I thought I'd be at 6 months.
  • Speaking of showers... I pretty much have no one planning a baby shower for me. My mom & MIL will most likely be doing the whole thing. My friend (the one getting married) asked me the other day if my mom was doing it and I was just like "ummm I guess. Whoever wants to." Sorry but I think she should be doing it. I did her baby shower & now her wedding shower. She barely did anything for my wedding shower. It kind of makes me feel like crap knowing that the only people that want to plan a shower for me is my mom & MIL. I know my friends will help them but I just feel bad that my mom & MIL have to basically make it happen. They shouldn't have to do that.
  • Well I think I'm off to bed. Hope this post made some kind of sense. I think I'm delirious from lack of sleep.

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Name poll!

Okay ladies I have a favor... I've started a poll to the right w/some names that we like so far. DH and I are having a very hard time deciding on one. I didn't think it would be this hard but seriously.. this is his name FOREVER. It's got to be good. The names on the poll are some that we have narrowed down so far. I'm open to suggestions so let me know of any cute names you girls have & maybe it's one I have thought of yet!

I was asked if we plan to TTC another child after this & the answer is yes. I don't plan to take BCP's after baby is born unless my cycles are still really crazy. I can't go months w/out AF as my RE feared that it would cause endometrial cancer. If my endo pain comes back after delivery I will have to go back on them though. We plan to TTC again in a few years after he is born. My ins covers 2 IVF cycles after a live birth so we plan to use those if need be. I'm hoping that I wont have to go on BCP's and have a "surprise" but... we know how that goes! Probably not going to happen! I plan to breastfeed/pump also so I guess it would be awhile before I'd start BCP's and have AF anyway so we'll just have to see how AF is after that.

Sunday, March 28, 2010

20 weeks u/s pics!




Hi ladies! Here are the pics of my main man! We got the nursery painted this weekend (except the trim) and bedding is in. Once it's all finished I'll post some pictures. Hope everyone is doing well!

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

It's A....

BOY!!! BLUE TEAM!! Everything is measuring right where it should be. He weighs 11oz. Was very proud of his boy parts... the tech didn't even have to search for them. As soon as she started she was like it's a BOY! He has DH's nose for sure. I'll update w/pics later. So happy!

The count down begins!

Okay so I actually started the count down days ago... 1 HOUR until my BIG U/S! OMG OMG OMG I'm soooo excited! I'm really nervous too. I just hope everything is going well & normal. I'll update asap girls! Pink or Blue? Ahhh the suspense is killing me.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

UTI

Yep. I've got a urinary tract infection. I'm not all the surprised... I've had quite a few in the last year or so. It started Monday night... I was getting up and peeing every 20min. It wasn't like a normal UTI where I just got out a few drops it was full flowage. My pee hole (haha) felt a bit irritated but didn't burn. I figured... well hell I'm getting a UTI. So Tuesday I was off work and didn't have any symptoms so I thought maybe the baby was laying on my bladder Monday evening and that's why I was peeing so much. I lay down to watch Lifetime for no more than 15min and its back. My pee hole feels funny! So I call the OB and go in to piss in a cup. Of course they tell me I'll have my results first thing this morning. 3pm rolls around and I still haven't heard anything so I call. The lady that answered was a snob by the way but needless to say I have a UTI coming on. They were supposed to call my antibiotics into Walgreen's. Well I go there to pick it up & they never freaking called! I miss my RE. I miss my RE like crazy! So now I wait till morning to bitch these people out for not calling it in then leave work to pick it up so I can get the meds in me. From what I've heard UTI's are really bad when your pregnant so I just hope it gets cleared up w/no complications. Freaking bladder... who needs it?

On a more positive note we just got back from getting our taxes done & we're getting $1700! WOOHOO. Not much compared to what some people get but we were wanting to get a new bathtub & vanity & now we will be able to! Poor DH w/the bathroom & nursery he's going to be so busy around the house! Oh well not my problem! LOL

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Random Ramblings

Hi ladies! I haven't posted in a while so I thought I'd go w/bullets today!!

  • I'm off today! YAFREAKINGHOOO. I'm so burnt out on work. SOOOO burnt out. I'm tired of bitchy customers & bitchy co workers. I really want/need a job where I don't deal w/people all day. Just sit an cubical all by my lonesome. That's my dream job. =)
  • Its my day off and my dogs woke me up at 7:30. Grrr.
  • Baby is doing well... I've been feeling him/her move around alot lately! Such a great feeling. Only 2 more weeks until we find out the sex! I'm so excited yet really nervous for the u/s. This is the u/s where they check all the organs and make sure everything is growing properly. Fingers crossed that everything will be perfect!
  • We ordered all of our nursery furniture last night. I know its wayyyy early BUT I couldn't wait any longer. I had it picked out so why not just get it?! I plan to order the bedding after my u/s as long as the little bugger shows us its private parts! Here's the furniture we got. We got the crib, dresser, bookcase, toy box & conversion rails for later. We ordered it in coffee. I measured it all and it's going to fit perfectly in the room. Jake is supposed to be working on it this weekend... getting all the old trim torn off and redoing some of the dry wall. I'll be keeping that man busy for the next 5 months for sure!
  • I'm going to attempt to put up a poll on your thoughts of if it's a boy or girl... if you don't see it over to the side you'll know I'm an idiot and couldn't figure it out! Some background info on the boy/girl question...

My mom thinks it's a girl because I'm just like her when she was pregnant w/me. Minor sickness, same kind of belly... that kind of thing.

Jake's family hasn't had girl in generations. Jake's grandpa had only brothers, his dad had only brothers, Jake only has a brother & his brother had all boys. Odds of a girl- pretty slim!

I took an old wives tale quiz on line (I know that doesn't mean squat) & it said boy.

  • 18 week belly picture to be taken tomorrow night! I will try and get it up tomorrow- we get our taxes done tomorrow night though so I may not have time. Yuck. I just hope we don't have to pay in this year.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

17 week appt update

Hi ladies! Just got back from my 17week appt and everything went well! I've gained almost 9lbs so far (gasp!). I knew it was coming but OMG I've never weighed this much in my life! Does that seem like a lot for only being 17 weeks? I'm just worried that maybe I'm eating more than I should or maybe I just need to eat better foods. Either way I have a feeling I'm going to gain a lot more by the time the little one gets here! My BIG u/s is scheduled for March 23rd. I'm so excited! DH & I plan to go shopping afterwards to try and find some bedding. We are going shopping for furniture w/my in laws on April 3rd so we really would like to have the room painted before we start moving furniture in there. We already have a set picked out for both boy or girl but now we just need to find out which it is & make sure that's really what we want! 3 more weeks! OMG is this for real? I'm still in shock. Totally. I'm so incredibly blessed & couldn't be more thankful & happy right now. I hope all of you are doing well... I know we've had some really shitty times lately & I hope everyones luck starts to turn around. Thinking if you as always...

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Update

Hi girls! Thanks for your input on the last post. I'm sure it is just RLP and it's getting a lot better. I still feel it sometimes but nothing like I did Thursday morning. I looked it up online and it said it was most common on the right hand side as mine was on the left... I figure that's still what it is but I'm anxiously awaiting my appt on March 2nd so I can hear the heartbeat and then I'll feel much better. I'm feeling really good other than the RLP but meat is getting to me lately. I literally can't eat it. I take a bite and spit it back out. I never was much of a meat eater but right now the thought is just nauseating. I'm using my belly band for the first time today... so far so good. It's kind of a pain when you have to use the bathroom though. My jeans are just getting a bit too snug. I can wear them and button them but it's suffocating!

I went to a craft show today w/my mom & one of her friends. I had a good time but the show sucked. However I did find this really cute blanket for the baby that has ribbons all around it for the texture. It has rabbits on a big fluffy cloud all over it. Too cute, I couldn't pass it up!

Mom's house is officially on the market w/a realtor. She had an open house today and it did really well. She had a bunch of people look at it and quite a few are really interested in it. I'm happy that she is getting rid of it. Jake & I really wanted to buy it but the more I think about it... I'm "okay" w/her selling it. I think it just needs to be gone and I never have to go back. It's just too hard to be there w/out my dad and all the old stuff in it. Just hard to make this change but I think it will help us all move on in the long run.

We are hoping to remodel our bathroom w/in the next few months! It's something we've been wanting to do for awhile but never got around to doing because all of our extra money was going towards IF treatments. We plan to do it if we get a decent amount back on our taxes (fingers crossed). Our tub is the original tub when they house was build in the 70's and its old and shitty. There was a gold (ugh) shower door on it when we moved in and it had to go!! We took it off but still have the track on it. It just collects shit and I step on it all the time getting out of the shower and there is no way I'm bending over that to bathe the baby! It will be so much better when it's done. I can't wait!!

Well I think that's all I've got for now... I hope everyone is doing good!! Love you girls!

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Ovarian pain?

Gotta make this quick cuz I'm on my lunch break but need some opinions or what others have felt. I woke this morning w/what felt like ovulation pains on my left ovary area. I thought maybe I just pulled something and it would get better as the day went on. Well nearly 2 hours later my pain was probably a 6 out of 10. Which isn't TOO bad but enough to make me call my OB doctor. They just told me to take 1000mg of Tylenol & drink lots of fluids. Call if it's not better in 6 hours. Okay... well I do feel better after taking the Tylenol BUT why is this happening??? They said it could just be ligaments stretching but... only on one side? By my ovary? I hope it's nothing... I'll keep you updated.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

14 week belly pic!


Here's my 14 week belly pic! Starting to really get out there! I was looking at my 4 week belly pic and comparing it to this one & OMG they are so different. I'm going to have to breakout the belly band soon because my pants are getting so tight! I've been feeling "okay" I guess. I've thrown up several times this week which I think is a bit odd considering I only threw up once in the whole 1st tri. I've felt worse this week than I did the whole 1st tri actually. I may just be getting the flu too. I felt horrible today and didn't get off the couch except to pee & eat dinner. Happy V-day to me! haha. Regardless of how I've been feeling lately... I am so blessed and I'm am so happy to be feeling all of these feelings. I'll throw up everyday for the next 5 months if it means my baby is healthy! I'm so freaked out right now because I've never gone this long w/out a doctors appt and hearing the heartbeat. 2 more weeks until my next appt and it's killing me! I'm half tempted to just call in there and make them check the heartbeat for me just to ease my mind! Anywho it's off to bed I go. I hope you ladies are doing well and as always I'm praying for all of you!!

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Daycare vs. babysitter

I'm having quite a delima w/this. A good friend of mines mom babysits and comes highly recommended so I really wanted her to be our babysitter. She only lives a block away too. Unfortunately she's at her max and can't accept us. Shit. So now I have to figure out what I'm going to do. I don't really know of any other babysitters in town but I do know of a really good day care that my bro's kids go to and a girl from work. They both really like it there. I'm just not sure if I want to take the daycare route or not. On the other hand I'm not sure if a babysitter is the right direction either. Decisions, decisions. Please give me your thoughts on this ladies!

The ins. hoopla is getting taken care of. Finally. What a bunch of crap though. And freaking stressful!

I'm officially in the 2nd tri! Holy shit I can't believe that... My bump is getting pretty out there. I'll be taking my 14wk pic tonight and hope to get that uploaded for you all.

Please take a few min to go over to Allison's blog. She's going though some rough times right now... ((((HUGS))) to you Allison.

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Insurance Vent

OMG!!!!!! I seriously just want to punch these ins people in their damn faces! This new insurance is a damn nightmare. They still haven't paid one cent to my doctors office and come to find out they don't even pay the doctor they send me a check and I have to pay them.... okay that's nice to bad the bill is late once I get the check. On top of that they only send the check for 80% when they should be paying 100% for 2009 claims. My bill is nearly $9000 at my RE's office and they send me a fucking check for $1300.00. Not even close people. Its only for a weeks worth of claims and isn't even close to being right amount. I've had to fax more shit to these people, more bills and EOB's its not even funny. I just don't understand why it is so fucking hard for them to pay 100% when they KNOW they should be. GRRRR This probably makes no sense because I'm typing it in a hormonal furry but I had to get it out. I'm doubting my work goes w/this plan for 2011 because they have had nothing but problems w/it but OMG I have to deal w/their shit for a whole year! Think about it once the baby is born I'll be messing w/all those hospital bills... this is enough to make me go postal. I just want to go back to BCBS. They were great. Personal Care sucks monkey balls... don't EVER get their coverage. Period. Bunch of freaking idiots.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

11 week u/s!



Hi girls! This is my 11 week u/s! Last one till the BIG ultrasound. Hopefully that will be around 17 weeks but I should know for sure at my first OB appt Monday. Things are going well... been having some horrible headaches but other than that it's all good =) I will post my 12 week belly pic & the pic of Jake & I w/our doctor soon. Been busy and have been having problems w/my computer. Not sure if I was hacked or what but my Facebook acct made me reset my password 3 times & I noticed that my baby widget on here said I was 16 weeks... freaky and it all happened the same night! I'll get a new widget on here soon.. couldn't figure out how to fix it so I just deleted it. Hope everyone is will & hopefully I will be back to posting/commenting soon. I've been spending most of my evenings on the couch because my head has been pounding. I hate Tylenol... it does nothing for me!

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Graduation Day!

I had my last RE appt/ u/s today! Felt very strange... I'm can't believe I'm actually going to miss that place but the people there are so awesome! They want me to call when I find out what I'm having and make sure I send pictures. They said to come visit anytime too. I promised I would. We got our picture taken w/the RE & IVF nurse which I will post another day. They gave me some magazines to read and some coupons for formula. I thought the nurse was going to cry which about made me start crying! We brought in cookies that I had specially made w/sperm, eggs & babies! They didn't turn out like I wanted but they thought it was hilarious! My RE was laughing his butt off and wanted them in the picture! Too funny!!

U/S went great. It just amazes me how much the baby has grown in a week! I'll post the u/s pic later too. And my 11 week belly pic which has also grown since last week ~wink~.

I made an appt w/the OB doctor here in town and I see him Feb 1st. He will just do a physical and check the h/b and that kind of thing then it will be once a month like a normal person. Wow... normal. So not me!!

Hope everyone is doing well and hasn't been sick lately! Seems like everyone at work has gotten the stomach flu... I've been luck enough to dodge it so far!!

Thursday, January 14, 2010

10 week u/s & belly pic!


Okay let me just say that uploading pictures on here is a bitch... I can't seem to figure out how you girls get them on here and arrange them so nicely... my belly pic is ginormous and when I try and reshape it it gets all screwed up... what gives??

My 10wk check up went awesome! Baby is looking great and measuring right at 10wks! Woohoo! I can't believe how different he/she looks from last week. Arms & legs are soo much longer and maybe it's just me but I think you can actually see the eyes and mouth. The middle picture is my favorite. We were laughing at the bottom one... baby has its hand right by its nose that makes it look like it has a big nose like Mr Burns from the Simpsons! Too funny! I've still been feeling pretty good... just nauseated at times but not bad at all. I can't complain.. I've been really lucky in the m/s department.

Now for my belly pic... um ya I'm like huge already! I had just gotten done eating dinner in this pic though. In the mornings of course it isn't this big but by the end of the night I have to unbutton my britches! I bought a few belly bands but don't need them quite yet. They were on sale so I thought I might as well get them now because I will be needed them sooner than I think!

I don't really have much else to report... been trying to figure out something for Jake for Valentines day.. any ideas? What are you getting your DH's??