Sunday, November 29, 2009
How am I feeling?
Some of you girls have been asking how I'm feeling... well I feel fine! I was feeling really good about it.. thinking it finally worked this time, then I wake up this morning and BAM I feel a huge sense of dread. I don't want Friday to get here w/my Beta. I'm scared. I just want this week to last forever so I can sit here and "pretend" that I'm pregnant. I even had a dream last night that my beta was positive but I'm so terrified now. I just know what the negatives have don't to me in the past... I'm just not ready for that again. Plus finding a new RE and basically starting all over. I NEED this to work. Not just want... I NEED it!