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Sunday, July 13, 2008


I can't do this. I cant. If I keep getting negatives I dont know what I'm going to do. My last cycle nearly killed me. It hurts. I cant even explain it. I feel like I'm dying inside. What am I going to do? Do I keep doing IUI's. Do I TAB for a while? I dont want to stop, I cant stop. I've never wanted something so bad in my entire life nor have I tried so hard to get it. I've always been happy with what I have but not anymore. There is no way I can be happy without a child. No friggin way. How do I keep smiling? How can I be happy for people w/children who treat them like shit? I'm so depressed. I really thought this was it. I have no hope left. I know 11DPO is early but come on. I know its going to be - the next day & the day after too. I'm done being positive. It gets me no where.


Earl Gearl said...

I'm sorry Jayme. IF sucks. Fertile people suck. This whole crazy process is just not fair. I hope you get your BFP soon.

Anonymous said...

Jayme, I am so sorry you are so depressed. I don't know what to say except that I understand how you feel and all of the women struggling with IF understand too. I know it's hard to hope, but please don't give up.
-Marie (from webmd)

elephantscanremember said...

I am so sorry. BFNs stink. I hate them. I got around that by not even testing. It was too much for me, too.
I don't want you to give up hope either. But I know what it's like to want to stop altogether.

You're in my prayers.